Sunday, January 17, 2010
So you think you’ve been working your ass off…
My traumas, drug use and hospitalizations
1959-60 - three non-violent sexual molestations
1957 - Hurricane witnessed tree limb break through window
1963 - auto accident thrown into front seat of car
1964 - set fire to woods in back of house, I didn't turn 10 years old until November
1964 - beaten on back and legs leaving bleeding whelps and bruises on back and legs,
1964 - minor head injury, one stitch, hit with swing,
1965 - father tried to kill our canary
1965 - Hurricane
1965 - caught in crossfire between the KKK and NAACP in Middleton, NC, on our way back to VA
1967 - father became severely psychotic put butcher knife to mother's throat he was hearing monkeys in the trees in the backyard and tried to play music for them, he was hospitalized
1968 - concussive head injury (ran into playmate on school grounds, buried his teeth into my forehead, no neurological follow-up
1971 - father tried to kill our dog with a butcher knife
1973 - hit in face, broken nose
1974 - father’s suicide, I tried to commit suicide
1974 - auto accident
1974 - sexual assault in Army, lesbian enlisted woman
1975 - sexual assault in Army, African American MP Officer
1975 - kidnapped and assaulted while on leave from Army
1975 - auto accident
1978 - auto accident
1989 - tried to commit suicide
1990 - assaulted by roommate Susan Becker
1990 - arrested for damage to property took drug overdose, xanax
1990 - assaulted in jail Pitt County by African inmate
1990 - sent to prison
1991 - arm slammed in cell door by staff nurse and guard, irreparable damage; under duress while incarcerated, took pen top and tried to slash my wrist on my left arm
1992 - sexual assault, thanks to Susan Becker, by Ken Skinner, never prosecuted
1993 - homeless until 1998
1993 - threatened and assaulted by African inmate (Janice Hammond (history?), beat my head on cement floor
1995 - tried to commit suicide drug overdose in motel room
1996 - arrested for traffic violations had pistol put to my head (recall the lady in Florida who was pursued by State Patrol and pulled out of car) that's the way it happened.
1997 - incarceration, was harassed and picked on, placed in segregation
2000 - flooded out of apartment
2001 - 9/11 WTC attacks
Drugs I have taken...
A list of all the drugs and alcohol I have been given by doctors or taken on my own, since I was a child. I think I was acting-out a lot of other people's stuff, in fact my life has been nothing but acting-out other people's stuff.
1955 – 1961, Paregoric infancy to about 7 years old
1958 – present, Caffeine
1961 - Ether for tonsillectomy
1969-73 – Theophylline (Tea) childhood to present, heaviest use
1972-1990 - Nicotine
1972-2009 - Alcohol
1972 - Phenobarbital
1972 - Donnatal prescription, too much can also mimic paralysis and I now suspect this is what was causing my sleep paralysis.
1972 - Librax prescription
1973-79 - Marijuana
1974 - Morphine Beaufort Co, Emergency following auto accident
1974 - Ether Surgery
1974 - Speed (black beauties)
1974 - LSD ½ hit of Blue Micro dot. Was so fearful of the experience that I did not want to do it again.
1974 - Tuinol
1974 - Seconal
1974 - PCP
1974 - Acid again at ECU campus party, was intoxicated Did not experience hallucinations.
1975 - Dexedrine to lose weight after getting out of the Army
1975 - Hard Liquor
1975 - MDA
1976 - Plastidyl
1976 - Valium
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After I moved in with Beth and then Jean
1978 - Poppers (amyl nitrate) five times
1981 - Flexiril one or two
1979-1983 - No drugs or alcohol went to AA
1983 - One mixed drink
1984 - 4 beers and no more alcohol or drugs from 1984-1986.
1986 - L-Tyrosine over the counter for depression roughly 3 years stopped smoking
1987 - L-Tryptophan for sleep
1987 - Choline Bitartrate roughly 2 years
1987 - Tranxene two tablets for anxiety
1987 – Began using alcohol again
1988 - Ether surgery
1988 - Phenergan nausea following surgery
1989 - Alcohol half bottle of wine was attending Mental health At this time ended up becoming suicidal, hospitalized for three months
1989 - Restoril Pitt Psyche unit
1989 - L-Tryptophan Pitt Psyche unit
1989 - Atarax Pitt Psyche unit outbreak of hives (psychogenic) Demerol and Valium for Endoscopy
After moving in with Susan
1990 - Ativan person
1990 - Ativan prescription.
1990 - Theophylline sinus tabs 10,
1990 - Buspar Prescription 30,
1990 - Doxepin prescription,
1990 - Glutamic Acid unintentional overdose
1990 - Xanax overdose following overdose of glutamic acid
1990 - Doxepin prescription, forced meds
1991 - Mellaril prescription forced meds
1991 - Buspar prescription
1992 - Klonopin one
1992 - Alcohol one glass of wine
1993 - Alcohol two mixed drinks following sexual assault
1993 - Ether or ? Surgery
1993 - Effexor
1993 - Glutamic Acid
1993 - Alcohol 6 pack
1994 - Lithium carbonate 50mcgs over the counter, 50 tabs
1994 - L-Histidine, 500 mgs, 30 days
1994 - L-Cycteine – 500 mgs, 30 days
1994 - Elavil, two pills
1994 - L-Taurine, an Amino acid, 1000mgs per day, 30 days
1994 - L-Tyrosine, 1000mgs per day, 30 days
1994 - GABA, 500mgs per day 30 days
1994 - L-Methione, 500mgs 30 day supply
1994 - L-Arginine Pyroglutamate, 500mgs 30 tabs
1994 - Trazadone, during psychiatric hospitalization for sleep
1995 - Prozac prescription
1995 - Xanax in combination with prozac, this is a deadly combination
1995 - Ativan prescription, overdosed,
1995 - Choline chloride, took too much became ill administered
1995 - Compazine, for nausea
1996 - Alcohol, wine and beer
1996 - Klonopin prescription for complex partial seizure
1997 - DHEA 100mgs for four days
1997 - Dilantin
1997 - Amytriptylline for sleep
1997 - Ambien for sleep
1997 - Alcohol 4 beers
1997 - Ambien Prescription
1997 - Valproic Acid prescription
1997 - Lithium and Valium prescription
1997 - Dilantin 7 prescription
1998 - Alcohol
1998 - L-Threonine combined with the following three amino acids
1998 - L-Lysine
1998 - L-Taurine
1998 - MSM
1998 - Depakote prescription
1998 - Mellaril prescription
1998 - Thorazine from individual
1998 - Zyprexa sample
1998 - Seroquel sample
1998 - Ativan person
1999 – Prozac prescription
1999 - L-Taurine over the counter
1999 - Depakote prescription
2001 - Risperdal sample from Doctor
Incarcerations
1977 - Ayden County Jail, Griffin, NC public drunkenness refusing to get into the car of an African Deputy.
1990 - Pitt County Jail, 15 days December 26, 1990 transferred to NCCIW, pre-sentence evaluation Trespassing/Damage to property
1991 - NCCIW 3 months returned to Pitt County Jail pending sentencing
1991 - Pitt County Jail, awaiting sentencing, appealed sentence to Superior Court, placed under $10,000 bond. Remained in jail 45 days, under duress, remanded appeal
1991 - May 12, violated probation, returned to Prison for 5 months
1994 - Wake County jail 55 days
1995 - Wake County jail, forgot court date, 4 months
1996 - NCCIW (mental health unit) safekeeper
1998 - FCCW 4 months psychiatric care (figure that one out) traffic violations
Psychiatric Treatment History
1972 - Tideland Mental Health – acting out in class which consisted of me defending another student, by voluntarily leaving the class after it was clear she was being made a scapegoat for the rest of the students who were engaging in conversation…there was no violent act or violent confrontation, I simply left the classroom after the instructor threw the other student out for something half the classroom was guilty of at that time. I told him, “he should expel me and half the class from the room”. But I have since realized this was not the sole reason for the school psychologist suggesting that I be seen by someone at the Mental Health clinic. I had written a paper which my US History instructor claimed was an abomination, referring to statements I made about the non-existence of God. I further stated that “one could do anything one wanted to”, but I failed to carry the thought to its logical conclusion, in that I should have stated that, “if you are willing to accept the consequences”. I was not confronted about this, by one single instructor nor the counselor I saw at mental health. I do realize it is not the job of teachers to be parents as well. During my testing (to see if I was a genius I think) and counseling, television was never mentioned nor the consequences of viewing it on the brain and mind. Books were written, I am sure as the result of discovering what was in my head.
1973 - Tideland Mental Health
1973 - Campus psychiatrist after drug overdose
1980 - Wake County Alcohol Treatment Facility outpatient 8 months voluntary
1984 - Wake County Alcohol Treatment facility inpatient 3 days voluntary
1985 - Wake County Alcohol Treatment Facility in and outpatient 7 days, voluntary
1985 - Continued outpatient treatment for 1 year, sexual abuse issues Had to discontinue therapy after Blue Cross and Blue Shield claimed I was being treated for a pre-existing condition. As a result I regressed and went back to previous behaviors.
1987 - Tideland Mental Health - Therapy /Alcohol Treatment, Voluntary
1988 - Tideland Mental Health - Therapy
1988 - Pitt Memorial Hospital suicidal , voluntary
1989 - Cross Roads Psychiatric Facility, voluntary
1989 - ECU Outpatient Psychiatric 2 months, voluntary
1990 - Cherry Hospital - drug overdose 3 days, involuntary
1990 - North Carolina Correctional Institute for Women Mental Health involuntary
1991 - Cherry Hospital 6 days, involuntary
1992 - Nash General hearing voices admitted to Cross Creek Psychiatric facility, three days – prozac, voluntary
1993 - John Umstead 4 days, voluntary
1994 - VA Medical Center Salisbury – suicidal , involuntary VA medical Durham, voluntary
1995 - VA Medical Center Durham- multiple personalities, involuntary
1995 - John Umstead, voluntary
1996 - John Umstead 7 days, voluntary
1997 - John Umstead, voluntary
1998 - Cherry Hospital 2 weeks transferred to VA Medical Center,voluntary
1999 - Orange Person Chatham Mental
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