Sycamore – Moonlight in Vermont…? 400 Blows, Truffaut film…
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Nor did I connect my LSD experience with Woman in Green or any of the other films I found which employ hypnosis…
…it was the LSD and then the PCP that put me onto the potential problem but then I was so busy trying to get through college (which never happened) and making a living that I never had the time nor energy to sit down and figure it out.
After taking the LSD I say “sleep” pass before my eyes like a ticker tape. This was 1974. It just doesn’t seem like something that would have come from that film but who knows, something my mind created from the dialogue.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Second woman from the left looks like Jamie Lee Curtis – she also looks like Mickey Hodges…
What's In Kay's Mind?: I have seen a few of these mustaches, shadows in the mirror…
~ Mickey Mouse – maybe McCall is really Mickey Hodges…?
My family’s lives have been miserable, mine has been miserable…
…Kay’s family has paid for it and you think she’s going to sit back and keep her mouth shut while someone else bags the money we are out or our damned minds.
My World History teacher at ECU, Poppadopalus (sp?)…
Chicago’s Greek-American population
The Third Rail and Michael Harvey’s Chicago « Knopf Doubleday – Mystery
…had ouzo only once in my life. Not to my liking.
#2 the Asian looking fellow reminds me of Chaz in her early pics on the Sonny and Cher show…
What's In Kay's Mind?: I have seen a few of these mustaches, shadows in the mirror…
…he must have pulled the cord on the gallows…
The Magnificent Seven ~ Riding the “L” in Chicago…corrected image update
Kay rode the “L” in Chicago in 1983…
I have seen a few of these mustaches, shadows in the mirror…
From left to right, I’ve noticed, 1,7 and 3. #3 looks like Cher in one of her Caesar’s Palace sets.
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Dicovery Channel’s Pushing The Limits…
…Last night, someone was eating Blackeyed Peas, crackers, someone drank a glass of milk, another a cup of coffee, and another a coke and then some ice cream.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Some people have confused me with another person who wants to weigh 300 lbs…
Kay Gibbs does not want to weigh 300 lbs. She does even want to weigh the 180 lbs she now weighs. She is trying to get her weight back down to 125-130 lbs. So please stop trying to big her up. She does not want to be bigged up.
I know this is in the mix…have not seen it - updated
…had my bicycle stolen a week after I moved into my first apartment here where I live. I know who took it.
Update: Mothers and mother figures are often the objects of projections.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
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Sunday, December 18, 2011
Here is a scooter pic not the one I am thinking of…
IMCDb.org: Piaggio Vespa in "Grazie... nonna, 1975"
…the scene that sticks out in my mind was a young boy on a scooter driving through a narrow street in Italy I think and he stops and this girl gets on…might be B&W film…I recall a big round fountain in the picture…may have stolen something and run off with it on the scooter…
Riding on back of small motorcycle with Art…
Some Italian or French film, not sure which film – girl hops onto back of cycle with boy…late 60’s or early 70’s might already be out of it…
Duchess of Alba with Cruise – really looks like Jacqueline’s figure – is it really?
1st and 2nd from the back left, in the middle seated…
Someone must have been studying this images, this is the first time I have seen this photograph today…
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This is what part of the apartment looked like, where the two girls lived, my part of it was in the front with all the windows…
What's In Kay's Mind?: I did smoke a pipe in 1984…update 3
This is an image from a Cher Video – Strong Enough…my part of the house was on the other side of the french doors and the kitchen was through this room on the left through another door…
Alice stole the rent money - $20? pounds…update 3 corrections
What's In Kay's Mind?: I did smoke a pipe in 1984…update 3
…she had a dog a greyhound…
She and Angela actually stole $300.00 from Beth and I. It was before this time Kathy had moved in with Terry and I and the peeping tom showed up, when I prayed the 23rd Psalm…
I was wearing flip flops when I injured by left big toe – 50’s model sneakers when I injured my right…
Left toe was injured from dropping my dictionary on it, right toe from kicking a chair while in prison.
I have not had any injuries to my left thumb…updated
What's In Kay's Mind?: I did smoke a pipe in 1984…update 3
…I have injured both my big toes and my left ring finger got smashed while folding up a Gazzle exercise equipment. Left toe was injured from dropping my dictionary on it, right toe from kicking a chair while in prison.
The Piano – got her finger cut off for the ring…
I did smoke a pipe in 1984…update 3
She preferred the smoke of a pipe, which was soon to grant her the name "Clay Pipe" Alice by her friends and acquaintances. Her left thumb was also injured in what was no doubt some sort of industrial accident.
Casebook: Jack the Ripper - Alice Mackenzie
…This is around the time I went to see the psychiatrist [McKenzie might have been to the Salvation Army Shelter where she got off the drink]. I was having panic attacks and suffered from extreme paranoia and was agoraphobic at the time I was smoking the pipe, living on Cabarrus Street, renting a room with two other women, who were gay.
I have seen her as Alice…she was not buxom, pear shaped, facial features look more like those evolved from a chimpanzee, buck teeth, thick lips, loud but very friendly…
McKenzie ~ Lipper…
Casebook: Jack the Ripper - Alice Mackenzie
Susan Lipper – these images may be of import – some of them are similar to ones I have taken…
Looks like Ripper Victim…updated
…image from Lumbee Tribe Site. Looks like McKenzie Ripper Victim.
Cole down under…
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Hulu - Terraces - Watch the full movie now. I’m sure this is one…just viewed it - updated
Hulu - Terraces - Watch the full movie now.
This is where the voice is coming from…I saw a girl walking a dog like the one in this film a few days ago and she was wearing a coat styled from that period.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
What is a paradox…
After reading this article I had to conclude either I didn’t really know what a paradox was and I had been confused or I did know and the Oxford article was erroneously penned, maybe deliberately.
I had to view Woman in Green to discover what happened and what caused me to become hypnotized, risking being hypnotized again and using the same deductive reasoning Holmes did to find the cause and get myself out of the situation. This is what I think a paradox is really all about, it is like the Ouroboros or a Mobius or the symbol for infinity. In the film Holmes recovered from a hypnotic induction with the help of a pill, to save himself and capture the criminals and is sort of prophetic for the viewer.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Incoming…
“What is mazel tov”?
I have been hearing this a lot. It has infuriated me because I don’t give a damn what it means.
I heard this just a minute ago, “You will laugh it off when you hear this”…
Something else I discovered about many NLP books…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Jahalia was happening and had happened right here in America…
…they are written with you and your, the majority of them. After I process that information I will be projecting it onto others, and I will be helping them instead of myself. Most of them do not even teach me NLP but teach others NLP using my mind which then gets dissociated and is likely to be used against me.
I mentioned this in my commentary about projection and mirror work mentioned in The Magic of Believing. This set the stage for it. They followed up with other books they knew they would profit from, all the while the reader is still struggling and can not figure out why what he is reading isn’t working for him so he keeps reading all kinds of books.
Kay is a testament to this fact in numerous situations.
Jahalia was happening and had happened right here in America…
#!/2011/08/power-of-nightmares.html
Neurolinguistic Programming, a case of helping or hurting?
…this is what I mentioned about TV stripping those who view it of sensibilities and their rise to civility. On the one hand the Government talks about a decrease in crime but a rise in familial violence.
What I don’t understand is why American leaders look to foreign academics to tell us who we are or want to be and what we should do. The only thing they seem to be teaching Americans is how to shift terrorism onto innocents.
A hidden threat to America – Bernays, a Jewish propagandist, and Women in Green, a hypnotic trance implanted in the film, poisoning the minds of millions on a machine created by a Scotsman.
Leo Strauss – a Jew political academic
Although I felt I was helped by Eales, it is now clear she was looking at me through her own projections…
…and still yet another “professional” failed to see that I was in real need of help. We never really touched on any “real Issues” in my life that were the source of the problem. This did begin to happen with Dr. McNeil.
This is the biggest problem I have experienced with Mental Health and health care in general. They see patients through the eyes of their own educations about mental illness and disease. They can try and fit people into the many pages they read but it doesn’t work. Generally I felt a grave lack of real concern for my wellbeing or any ability to help me care for myself. My greatest success has come from books and practicing what they taught.
I felt the money I spent was used more to help them clean up the crap they learned that became a part of their minds.
What's In Kay's Mind?: I never connected Stepford Wives with the Sherlock Holmes film Woman in Green until I wrote the Commentary post…
… Neurolinguistic Programming, a case of helping or hurting, but after my recent viewing of Stepford Wives, it is clear they were finding out someone (me possibly or my mother or any other female who may have seen Woman in Green) was projecting that part of the self away from themselves. First the WIG is projected onto one of Joanna’s twin girls signified by her green blouse she is wearing when she gets onto the school bus for the first time. This was acted out in my youth when I gave away my Barbie doll, which looked like the WIG, to my sister one Christmas and was symbolic of my projecting it onto my sister and it was likely projected onto me from one of my Aunts or Mother or some unknown. It was also further re-enacted between my sister and brother when my sister chased by brother around the house with her Chatty Kathy (Kathy Hall, the writer?) doll that talked – the scene in which she lured Holmes to her apartment – there could also be scenes between my Aunt and Uncle.
Then WIG is transferred to an automobile, a green station wagon, prompting me to write a short mechanimorphic (for lack of a better word to describe the essay) kind of essay on someone’s erotic feelings about a woman described as an automobile. I wrote it in the 90’s. This nicely written essay has been misplaced and I have not located it as of yet (lots of papers to go through) or it is lost. This was brought out in Adam Curtis’ film Century of the Self, when marketers bought into Bernays’ ideas about how to get at the consumer via his most innate drives and desires and exploit them. This transference prompted our family to purchase a light green 60’s model Chevrolet and then in 1970 a green Plymouth, a deeper green than the Chevrolet (must go deeper) and then Kay purchased her own car a green Volkswagon. The woman in green, the seductress had now become something other than a woman, she became an automobile. Every man who watched that film would likely have been attracted to the woman in green. It is evident in my family.
This is how only a small group can become so very powerful. I feel certain this is someone from New York with whom my father may have had a psychic connection during the war. He was stationed on Long Island in 1939 before shipping out to Long Beach and then the Pacific to Iwo Jima and Okinawa.
_____________________
I also wore the usual Army green issue while enlisted in the US Army in 1974-75. While I had many issues to deal with in my youth, it is clear this film and other films like it may have contributed to the problem and to others thinking I was a lesbian. I never thought of myself as a lesbian. I never thought of myself as being in the wrong body, I just never entertained those ideas. Once after I heard about Christine Jorgenson, I thought about changing my sex, but it was because I was angry, but I wasn’t just angry at my father, but men and my mother and at that point in the Army, women too. I was just plain angry and it got worse and the anger grew into a big rage that I took out on myself making my body sick.
Right now I among many, feel as if I have been chosen as the sacrifice for every evil thing done to another. I am tired of it.
Monday, December 12, 2011
I have heard the thoughts of others in this manner, without using the spoken word…
While she never mentions setting fire to the school killing her sister, it is there in her mind and without speaking she transfers it to this other person.
Re: One Step Beyond, Dead Ringer… | Kay's Film Analysis
…for a very long time I was unable to hear because of the noise and traffic in my own mind and brain. It was quite shocking the first time I started to really hear someone say something to me with their mind. This led me to believe I had been frequently manipulated this way.
I went to Medford, MA…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Kay Medford - IMDb
…a grateful dumb ass as some so crudely put it, for not knowing all there is to know about everything in the world or about Hollywood. At least you can see where my family’s loyalties were.
I never connected Stepford Wives with the Sherlock Holmes film Woman in Green until I wrote the Commentary post…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Saw this – looking for clues…
… Neurolinguistic Programming, a case of helping or hurting, but after my recent viewing of Stepford Wives, it is clear they were finding out someone (me possibly or my mother or any other female who may have seen Woman in Green) was projecting that part of the self away from themselves. First the WIG is projected onto one of Joanna’s twin girls signified by her green blouse she is wearing when she gets onto the school bus for the first time. This was acted out in my youth when I gave away my Barbie doll, which looked like the WIG, to my sister one Christmas and was symbolic of my projecting it onto my sister and it was likely projected onto me from one of my Aunts or Mother or some unknown. It was also further re-enacted between my sister and brother when my sister chased by brother around the house with her Chatty Kathy (Kathy Hall, the writer?) doll that talked – the scene in which she lured Holmes to her apartment – there could also be scenes between my Aunt and Uncle.
Then WIG is transferred to an automobile, a green station wagon, prompting me to write a short mechanimorphic (for lack of a better word to describe the essay) kind of essay on someone’s erotic feelings about a woman described as an automobile. I wrote it in the 90’s. This nicely written essay has been misplaced and I have not located it as of yet (lots of papers to go through) or it is lost. This was brought out in Adam Curtis’ film Century of the Self, when marketers bought into Bernays’ ideas about how to get at the consumer via his most innate drives and desires and exploit them. This transference prompted our family to purchase a light green 60’s model Chevrolet and then in 1970 a green Plymouth, a deeper green than the Chevrolet (must go deeper) and then Kay purchased her own car a green Volkswagon. The woman in green, the seductress had now become something other than a woman, she became an automobile. Every man who watched that film would likely have been attracted to the woman in green. It is evident in my family.
This is how only a small group can become so very powerful. I feel certain this is someone from New York with whom my father may have had a psychic connection during the war. He was stationed on Long Island in 1939 before shipping out to Long Beach and then the Pacific to Iwo Jima and Okinawa.
_____________________
I also wore the usual Army green issue while enlisted in the US Army in 1974-75. While I had many issues to deal with in my youth, it is clear this film and other films like it may have contributed to others thinking I was a lesbian. I never thought of myself as a lesbian. I never thought of myself as being in the wrong body, I just never entertained those ideas. Once after I heard about Christine Jorgenson, I thought about changing my sex, but it was because I was angry, but I wasn’t just angry at my father, but men and my mother and at that point in the Army, women too. I was just plain angry and it got worse and the anger grew into a big rage that I took out on myself making my body sick.
Right now I among many, feel as if I have been chosen as the sacrifice for every evil thing done to another. I am tired of it.
I don’t think I’ve seen this either but someone I am enmeshed with must have…
Revenge of the Stepford Wives (TV 1980) - IMDb
Could be Dr. Levin who I saw in 1980 about my bronchitis.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
The mustache in Stepford Wives triggered my memories of Turning Point…
…I was doing ballet gestures with my hands and I recognized the facial aura…
This was such a great movie…
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Incoming…
“I’m tired of this girl”, “I can’t get my novel written”.
“I can’t believe this”.
That’s interesting. I can’t believe this? Like she owes you something.
Virtues are nice but I smell a rat here…
…Rand preached the Virtue of Selfishness one our country has not yet learned and it’s lack exacting a very high cost, for example 9/11.
Patience, charity, liberality, they all open the door for one to take advantage of another. Too much liberalness and you create a need for greed. Too much charity and you create a need for greed because one becomes wanton…
The Virtues Project - “the rising violence in families”…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Forbin ~ Bronif…?
…I thought crime was going down.
Re: Dr. Butterfield…
…Dr. Butterfield died from breast cancer and my cousin Jo Ellen Gibbs (who I thought resembled Virginia Woolf) died from breast cancer in 1997 or so.
Once again semantics becomes an issue…
…ie, “I have to finish cleaning my apartment today”. To Kay, the speaker, it connotes dusting, sweeping, mopping, dish washing, walking clothes to the laundry, LITERALLY. To writers and film makers and those who call themselves CLEANERS, (“would you press my shirts please, I like a little starch"), this housekeeping means taking out things of the mind by writing a book or diary or film script which includes extensive dialoguing, thought generation and consumption by the writer and exhausting synaptic activity that occupies ones time while trying to do the real housekeeping (which they have cleaned out of your mind so you have to create it again) so much so that you get nothing done. One might even find one’s self locked into the chair for hours while this is going on.
Kay is a literal person and she means to be taken literally. She knows where things come from in her mind and she will tell you. If she cannot find the origin she will tell you that too.
Red…updated
Watson on board a Navy ship operating a gun after the gunner froze up from a stress attack, WWII. I got rammed with a grocery cart, I had a lot of stuff in 3 or 4 storages I connected those to a place first in Chapel Hill, then in Massachusetts (see previous post – link coming soon), possible drug trafficking.
Friday, December 9, 2011
I’m wearing Howard Leight hearing protectors and I hear someone listening to the radio…
“forget about it…”, the song.
Butterfield 8…update 4
My birth certificate was mixed up with someone’s father who was a demolitions expert, my father was not in demolition, he was in the Coast Guard on an LST, his brother was in the Navy. My cousin was a Medic and the other a Marine, not demolition.
I did see this film after the 2007 event, some of it.
Crouse Hospital in Syracuse, NY – never been there, only New York City for a few hours.
WWII Vets Vernon Mead, Skip Warren, my father, my grandfathers…
Vietnam Vets, Sam Secrest, my cousins and lots of other people I know and I was in the Army at the end of Vietnam…
My psychiatrist at the Durham, VA, Dr. Butterfield
Cooper Crouse-Hinds MTL
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I have seen some of these…
Very talented actress, I recall one of her movies I watched that made an impression on me too! I also like some of Nolan’s films another talented actor.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
High fat high protein diets for cold climates…
not better for people living in milder climates. Brown fat helps keep the body warmer. Could this be where Atkins got mixed up?
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Saturday, December 3, 2011
The brain creates the body…
Ingrown Toenails Causes, Symptoms, Treatment and Prevention by eMedicineHealth.com
Sometime ago I looked at this site as I had injured my toenail and it was growing back poorly. Some of the nail had started to grow deeper into the skin than originally and was becoming painful. I found this site and looked at the image and weeks later my toenail got worse, starting to curl under the skin. Is it the mind/body connection or just a projection of what I had seen on this site?
Before this event I had questioned whether the trees or lightening may have helped create the cortex of the human brain starting in the most primitive parts of our existence. Due to the atmosphere at the time of the dinosaurs it was likely riddled with lots of electrical activity. Did they all die out? Did some survive? Did this environmental activity continue on until new life began to spring up and re-emerge? Did dinosaurs leave behind this psychic matter that was then possessed by other sea dwelling creatures who made their way back to the sea before their extinction? They would remain alive. Did this set the stage for sea dwellers to become amphibians and then land animals?
I am finally seeing and feeling the realities and truth of this statement. Of my body as a living breathing and constantly changing being not only because of what I put into my body but what I put into my mind.
This would not be a genetic/biological basis for schizophrenia…
adult-onset schizophrenia is genetically influenced and often traceable to uterine trauma or difficult birth
In some cases this is still true…
At one time, the mentally ill were diagnosed as demonically possessed;
Re: killing first borns…
I came to understand the desire to kill firstborns in biblical times. Was it bordering on psychic murder?
It seems from what I said that Herod did not realize his own projections but were they his? Were they just rumors in order to get rid of the people? Was there an illegitimate heir? They were likely those of the King of Ai as he was called a prophet, who Herod set out to kill. If they were Herod’s he failed to recognize them and set out to destroy that part of himself, killing innocent people in the process. King’s are like prophets.
In the case of Nebuchadnezzar, he mistrusted Daniel to render an accurate interpretation of his dream. Daniel apparently had his own agenda going and they were led into war. I think the dream was about Neb’s fear of ending up like his father, represented in the destruction of the Colossus. Fear of losing his head, hands and legs…
I drew a sketch in 1990 of a woman with no hand, no head and no legs below the knee. I was in the psychiatric hospital when I did the drawing.
Then they are the luckiest, they don’t have crap to contend with…
Slaves don't have souls (The Fine Art of Love)...
Incoming…
“suck my dick off”.
Kay Gibbs is not a cleaner, has never been a cleaner, is never going to be a cleaner and will stop this kind of thing from going on.
Tipping The Velvet only inferred these things it did not put this dialogue into my head, someone else did.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
I was playing frisbee last night…
I passed some people next to Sunstone in the parking lot of this small office building where meetings are often held across the street from the BBQ place. This was on Thanksgiving Day. They were playing frisbee with some dogs and older people.
Hung up there I guess.
Last night someone engaged me in conversation about this and I used the word translocation…
Kay's Film Analysis: One Step Beyond, Dead Ringer - 3rd revision…
…it came to me after hearing the word bi-location near the end of the film which was used to refer to the location of Esther’s soul in a place outside herself. Translocation would be the same as projective identification, which is a putting of something from the psyche or mind into another without disclosing the entirety of what is being put in, for instance Esther might have mentioned to some friend that she was in a fire in her youth and maybe even mentioned her sister was there but was living elsewhere. While she never mentions setting fire to the school killing her sister, it is there in her mind and without speaking she transfers it to this other person. This is the translocation and transference. She has put into the other her emotional state as well as her thoughts about having set the fire, which never really leave her, they are merely separated from her consciousness. The recipient of this translocation of trauma may not be aware this is happening to them and may even be rendered unconscious after it has occurred. They may then begin to re-enact the events sometimes even in a kind of reverse order. Esther fell ill and fainted each time the other person set a fire and as was mentioned, fires were reported in several places. Because the person setting the fires was unaware of the cause in order to stop it they kept repeating it and would keep repeating it until a resolution was reached.
This brought to light in my mind that most cases of trauma did not originate in every individual although one might be harmed by the re-enactment, which is a repeating of the trauma until the cause has been uncovered and resolved. This repeating does not have to lay with one person but many people could have been subjected to Esther’s accident before the truth would be discovered.
It is that which is unknown that causes the most problems.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Trying to convince people the consumption of alcohol is in some way helpful for the brain???????
http://etd.fcla.edu/UF/UFE0004357/smith_a.pdf
…ethanol releases taurine and Gaba which causes sedation.
Incoming…
“She still won’t drink any alcohol”,
WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM WITH KAY GIBBS NOT DRINKING ALCOHOL ANYMORE????????? YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH IT. YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH PEOPLE EXERCISING THEIR FREEDOMS WHEN THEY ARE IN OPPOSITION TO WHAT YOU THINK THEY OUGHT TO BE.
I HAVE NO INTEREST IN LEARNING TO DRINK SOCIALLY. I HAVE CONSUMED ENOUGH TO LAST TWO LIFETIME AND I HAVE NO INTENTIONS OF DRINKING ANYMORE. YOUR DESTRUCTIVE AND I CARE TO BE IN THE COMPANY OF CONTRUCTIVE POSITIVE PEOPLE.
Incoming…
Someone’s leaning over me talking to me like they are hypnotizing me, “there that’ll do it”, “Now get up”, “walk over to the mall”, “let’s see if she does it”…
A word to the unwise - I have been opposed to supporting the wikipedia, here is why…update 3
Free is a deception. They then prey on those who use it without donating, generally those who have no money. What they know about the psyche and why you are visiting the wiki alerts them there might be a story. Then in order for you to pay up they abscond the content of your psyche for the story under the guise of cleaning, a lot of pooey. They are doing nothing more than recycling the money back in their pockets.
Why do you think they put those pictures on it, guilt trips. The encyclopedia is not free, you have to pay for it with “donations”, so what’s the point? There are lots of encyclopedias available with far more accurate information like Britannica or World Book, I don’t know why Encarta stopped their encyclopedia I preferred it. if you have to pay for it anyway why not? What they are really doing is making a lot of people feel guilty for not having money.
I pay for access to internet content. If there were nothing on the internet, who the hell would buy it unless you have something to sell to someone else?
What I also find more annoying than anything else is that most of the information that gets obtained anyway is off the backs of poor people who have paid for it with their lives, their integrity or their dignity, on the streets, in jails, prisons, and asylums or mental hospitals. Why the hell should they have to pay anything?
PEOPLE ACT OUT AND THE MAJORITY OF THE TIME THEY DON’T EVEN KNOW THEY ARE DOING IT.
Pooh happened in 1996 after being in jail and prison again for traffic violations…
…started writing poetry. Pooh, A.A. Milne, 1926…
30 minutes after I woke up I looked out the door and my neighbor had a futon…
What's In Kay's Mind?: One of the things I saw…
…on her deck she was moving into her apartment. I don’t know where the pipes came from but I damn sure saw them.
Monday, November 28, 2011
Masturbation was once thought to be a problem, then it was thought to be a cure for hysteria then all these women…
started masturbating and then started acting out all sort of things but the hysteria was gone, that’s how the Ripper Victims lost their lives. The US Surgeon General said it was ok, I think it’s a death sentence for some.
I love you because you aren’t, don’t or can’t love yourself for a time…
I love you because you love me, or because you don’t love me; suggestions of others, sense of superiority; from pity; and for many other reasons, subjective and egoistic…
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Inviting Angel to the shed at the racetrack…Angel Heart Film…
…this ties in with my going to the Paddock Club in 1977-79…
Poveglia Island, Italy…I was in the psychiatric hospital when I drew the picture of the island…
…I put a silver lining under the cloud – every cloud has a silver lining…
I’ve seen this fish in a sketch somewhere…
"Pikeperch in Pastry" fantastical art - aluminium sculpture
I drew the original of this 20 years ago and there is another sketch I did with similar elements has not been shown to the public (cultural in nature)…
People tied to stairs?
YES, THAT IS WHAT I WAS SEEING CLEARLY, THAT WAS THE INITIAL PART OF THE VISION.
The driver of the vehicle looked like this man down under that which was lifted off me…
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…my niece sleeps under several layers of blankets, I mean like five plush blankets plus her comforter and and a down blanket. You would think she was freezing to death. I am concerned for her health doing this. My sister sleeps under a couple of layers also when it is not necessary.
Incoming – Dublin…
Current local time in Ireland – Dublin
…eating a piece of chocolate cake…saw the man doing the Stonehenge recovery with a map…Drinking dark beer – bottle of liquor – Jones?
Dengue fever…
That was Frank he had been to Africa lived there for sometime. Drank a lot of Fosters, got sick recently went to a nursing home to recuperate. Last I heard he was getting better. Highly intelligent man, Frank De Saix, a snake named for him. Linda and I helped him clean up his apartment and get some of his laundry done. No one’s told me but I think he’s passed.
Someone tried to lift me out of it…
some woman who was leading him through the building, short hair, pale skin. Maintenance man with long hair grayish skin disappears. I saw one of the Russian Painters a few days ago in my mind, and I saw him painting one of those pictures I found on the internet site. Can’t think of the artist now…impressionist…
Someone leaving the supermarket tried to lift me out of it yesterday. I turned and looked dead at them and saw his face, the painter ? or one of the One Step Beyond films I saw, round eyes, dark, sharp ridge across the top of the nose… I got it back.
This is the circle I was drawing in 1987…
First it was a daffodil in the center like a yin-yang – one side light, one side dark, both going in the same direction rather than in the opposite direction, becoming whole. Then there was a circle drawing of an island, then mountains with a road that split the two mountains…
Incoming - Moscow…updated
…seeing some stuff this late morning, lots of action. I woke up at around 8:00AM. I thought I was talking to Lindsay, then I realized it might be my sister, then I was laying out some black clothes thought it was a funeral, then I realized it was my laundry. Went back to sleep. Started seeing all kinds of stuff about 11:30 AM.
Men tied to stair railings, some long haired building maintenance man hold up under the basement, looked like the basement of the London Asylum…Cruise’s name came up. He was with some woman who was leading him through the building. Maintenance man disappears.
I saw one of the Russian Painters a few days ago in my mind, and I saw him painting one of those pictures I found on the internet site. Can’t think of the artist now…impressionist…
Incoming – “must give it to him”…
Angel Heart (1986) Trailer - YouTube
Durer Hand – I did a sketch of my own as well acting out at the time, did not know it was Durer. The herb gallery is in this film, part of the Old Operating Theater – later found tuzigoot…
Rourke and Deniro great actors.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
One Step Beyond, Dead Ringer - 2nd revision…
Bi-location? This is now termed splitting and dissociation I think. This seems another case of dissociation in this film, due to an accident committed by Esther in which her twin sister supposedly died. Fearful of severe punishment and distraught over the loss of her sister, Esther dissociates this act from her consciousness. It is then projected from herself onto some unknown who may have possessed a part of Emily’s soul released to the unknown person by Emily’s death. Esther being unable to cope with the death of her sister but wishing she had been the one to die, assumes Emily’s part of the personality. Esther’s fevers are re-enactments of her sister’s death. The unknown person is now possessed of Esther, the weaker personality. The unknown person being unable to cope with the content of Esther’s personality, acts out the incident over and over. She has been rendered unconscious by the possession and is unable to recall the original trauma. This is termed repetition compulsion.
These possessions are achieved when one soul, say the one possessed by a mother, is split into two parts by two daughters, not necessarily twins. The original personality might have been subjected to transferences and memories of some event in the past which has come to possess two offspring. The stronger personality has split off the negative content and it is now possessed by the weaker sister. The weaker sister, unable to manage the content, begins to act out that content, revealing the cause of a potentially criminal event, acting out a film the mother has seen, or simply the personality contains scenes of a farmer burning his field customary in farming communities.
I was particularly interested in this film as I was a victim of such an incident, having set fire to the woods behind our home in Chesapeake, VA in 1964.
When the child comes down the stairs at the end of this film…
Kay's Film Analysis: One Step Beyond- The Dead Part of The House…revised
…like an obedient little girl, she is in a loving obedient state of mind inflicted upon her by her Aunt Mina, the prelude to a Stepford Wife. Did the person portrayed as Ann in this film also see Woman in Green and was she a victim of that films hypnotic suggestions.
I do not feel I have been directly harmed by this Cd…
…it is the manner in which it is heard that causes the problem. By listening to it through earbuds it would be more helpful, listening to it via speakers can cause those with whom one is connected, to split off content belonging to someone else and project it onto another from where is did not derive.
Baggage Buster is one such product which masks its messages and refused to reveal the content of the script upon request, claiming it would not be affective if it were known.
One Step Beyond – Moment of Hate…
Several years ago I was having dinner with my sister and her family. We were discussing the possible need for a defibrillator after eating so much food. I said out of the blue, well you know they have those portable clappers, after which everybody broke out laughing. I have since connected it to One Step Beyond, Moment of Hate, produced by Ivor Klapper, in which a woman thinks she is causing the deaths of people around her, dialogue which I have heard frequently. Her boss who plays golf dies from a heart attack while she is vacationing. At the end of the film the woman said, “I am so tired”, “I hate myself”, and she died. Mirren did a movie I think which is from this.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
This statement goes to the heart of what they have been doing to us, deliberately causing us to dissociate the good parts of ourselves…
Happiness is having a large, loving, caring, close-knit family -- in another city.
-- George Burns
This was the reason for my erratic senseless behavior after getting out of prison…
Dissociative trance disorder: single or episodic disturbances in the state of consciousness, identity, or memory that are indigenous to particular locations and cultures. Dissociative trance involves narrowing of awareness of immediate surroundings or stereotyped behaviors or movements that are experienced as being beyond one's control. Possession trance involves replacement of the customary sense of personal identity by a new identity, attributed to the influence of a spirit, power, deity, or other person, and associated with stereotyped "involuntary" movements or amnesia. Examples include amok (Indonesia), bebainan (Indonesia), latah (Malaysia), pibloktoq (Arctic), ataque de nervios (Latin America), and possession (India). The dissociative or trance disorder is not a normal part of a broadly accepted collective cultural or religious practice. (See p. 727 for suggested research criteria.)
Psych Central: Dissociative Disorder NOS
…from which others have gained profit without having to pay for it themselves. Even my mother suffered from this disorder. After getting out of jail I over heard her in a conversation on the phone tell someone she didn’t have a son. This shocked me and sent my mind reeling. She then transferred this state to me and I again, after getting insuring and tagging a vehicle all while having a revoked license, took off in my car to wonder from town to town, getting into an accident, suffering a seizure for which I was given meds, running around in the midst of a hurricane I wasn’t aware of, to eventually getting another apartment only to lose it again and my license ending up in jail and prison for the fifth time, all while I was sober.
I am collecting information for my book I do not need any help with dialogue now.
Can’t get the gist of it? Good lord you’re not reading this blog if you can’t see the whole picture here.
I think they imprisoned the parts of Edgar Alan Poe…
What's In Kay's Mind?: This I was told was the purpose of my first imprisonment…
…why he died an early death because of the nature of his work likely a source of many a gentile woman’s hysterics as those who would enjoy such reading would project this out from themselves leaving the most innocent victims of the content of the projection.
This I was told was the purpose of my first imprisonment…
States of dissociation that occur in individuals who have been subjected to periods of prolonged and intense coercive persuasion (e.g., brainwashing, thought reform, or indoctrination while captive).
Psych Central: Dissociative Disorder NOS
…after getting out I started watching films again, whenever I was in a motel room which went on for 7 years.
Friday, November 25, 2011
One Step Beyond- Dead Ringer - YouTube
Woman claims evil twin is setting fires…eerie but thought provoking.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
I think someone was looking at this, I recognize the movements of the dancers…I have not seen this before just a minute ago…updated
I was acting this out two nights ago but I was not listening to the music.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
This is easily remedied today by a wealthy society in which food is easily acquired…
…and it is clear that meat eaters who have long been associated with blood sucking vampires, really have nothing to do with blood thirsty apes or humans as has been depicted in some films. What does happen and can happen as has been depicted in films is starvation can and does drive even the most advanced human to potential violence if food is not easily acquired. But more to the point, one does not have to eat a blood dripping steak to be satiated. It is only when the proteins in the blood albumin get too low that our drive for survival kicks in and the order of business for the day is the acquisition of food. I can satiate my protein needs with free form amino acids in sufficient quantities equal to a piece of beef and still be as healthy and as active as one who has eaten 50 grams of beef, provided of course I have eaten calories from other sources. When no other foods are available, then a cut of beef would surely fit the bill for survival.
I used to watch Oral Roberts perform his miracles on TV…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Incoming…
…we are later informed were fraudulent but what I now know from my own experience of having seen it is that his theatrics drove my mind to seek out the cure for the ills of my family and I found the answers in the most unlikely places, one was among those like me who knew from experience.
Incoming…
“That girl’s no idiot”…
I personally have had little to no academic knowledge of what I have written about. Most of my knowledge is empirical and I only sought out the academic terms to help me describe what I have been experiencing. I would never know what I now know, through reading books and not all of this gnosticism was attained via the television as I have acquired much of my knowledge from the world as opposed to the TV. TV tends towards fantasy and the impossible rather than what is. I learned this when I took the LSD and PCP.
Nicks to exploit or wanting to kill that success and take it for themselves…?
…why heros and idols must die symbolically. Cher’s managed to do this generations after her own by adapting to the next generation’s thinking and style. This is how a species survives – adaptation. I saw the movie too!
I purchased a green VW and VSW…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Adrian Stephen – I slept with Leslie Stephen ~ Julia Stephen ~ Julia Cox..
What was thought to be mental illness was nothing more than history.
Woolf was not possessed of Mary Jane Kelly, she was possessed of either Bond or Phillips and/or the investigators or even the persons who first discovered her body and the images they carried in their minds. It may have been the burden of the Bloomsbury Group and their attempts at unraveling the events of that century in which the Ripper murders occurred. My cousin Jo Ellen Gibbs Cuthrell, who it seems now was possessed of Virginia Woolf, died from breast cancer, I think, because of the images of Kelly’s body and the state of Woolf’s mind which I think included thoughts of attacking the breast, all of which I have experienced and some of which was acted out by my father and mother when I was 12 years old. Mr. Bond really did live above us in Portsmouth, VA and seems now synchronistic and possibly the derivation of many of the events we experienced.
When too many things are piled on or too much is taken into the brain, it is difficult of discern what is going on.
This means that if someone wanted to get on a plane and not be bothered by the noise after they land all they…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Lifting…
…have to do is lift someone else and then that person will hear that noise.
Lifting…
…dissociating and projecting. If you are lifted out of your present state by two people then it will collect all that they hear and see. I have been discovering this over the past few years since learning about what was happening at the Estes and Willow Drive intersections. I have been able to see what these people were seeing but only briefly. The other day I was waiting for the bus after grocery shopping which is located in a curve. When cars approach the curve it is easy for someone to get lifted if there are two people in the front seat of the car. I have often seen my own self standing at the stop after these cars pass by me. The other evening I was able to see the Staples sign around the corner and the bus stop going in the opposite direction while I was still standing at the bus stop. I usually try to catch them at the lights at the intersection. I even say the caution sign on the other side of Elliot. If I focused enough I probably could tell someone the phone numbers they dial on their phones or other personal info.
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This one does not look like the one I have. Mine has a stone basin, a stone like bath and streams, excellent for meditating-when i use it.
Woodman pining away for Cher Doll at the park…
…Oh Cher Doll, it’s woodman. Guess what?
Cher Doll: Well you know, what is it?
Woodman: I gotta a fast car…
Monday, November 21, 2011
Re: I slept with Leslie Stevens ~ Julia Cox – Middleton Post Office, second building on the left…update 4
What's In Kay's Mind?: Adrian Stephen – I slept with Leslie Stephen ~ Julia Stephen ~ Julia Cox..
The photos below are from within a 7 mile radius of the post office…my family was lifted into a lot of this and earlier history…
Julia Cox lived in the Post Office upstairs – I slept on the floor of the Five Points Post Office in Raleigh In 1994 – Julia’s husband slept on a cot in the post office…came from New York
One Step Beyond – Image of Death…
http://www.hulu.com/watch/182402/one-step-beyond-the-image-of-death
Albert Fish…Sweet Melissa…missing girl…
I’ve been sitting here at this computer for 8-10 hours day after day for the past 4-5 years…
What's In Kay's Mind?: I think this is the primitive animal instinct in certain species…update 4
…reading writing, thinking and wondering.
As I wrote certain species whose instincts are to rip into the flesh of another have sublimated this tendency into ripping into the minds and thoughts of another, probably driven by desire. I think philosophers danced all around this reality in their earliest days. From animals evolving, desiring to be human probably because humans seemed to have a nack for easily acquiring food, devouring thoughts that have nothing to do with the body’s or brain’s evolution. In this pursuit they fail to enjoy being themselves or living their own lives.
It must have been Leonard’s feminine that killed Virginia Woolf, maybe Woolf was depressed at the discovery of his own nature.
No it was the removal of his projections that reawakened her childhood despair and the history that was plaguing the people of that time, like the Ripper murders.