Sycamore – Moonlight in Vermont…? 400 Blows, Truffaut film…
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Nor did I connect my LSD experience with Woman in Green or any of the other films I found which employ hypnosis…
…it was the LSD and then the PCP that put me onto the potential problem but then I was so busy trying to get through college (which never happened) and making a living that I never had the time nor energy to sit down and figure it out.
After taking the LSD I say “sleep” pass before my eyes like a ticker tape. This was 1974. It just doesn’t seem like something that would have come from that film but who knows, something my mind created from the dialogue.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Second woman from the left looks like Jamie Lee Curtis – she also looks like Mickey Hodges…
What's In Kay's Mind?: I have seen a few of these mustaches, shadows in the mirror…
~ Mickey Mouse – maybe McCall is really Mickey Hodges…?
My family’s lives have been miserable, mine has been miserable…
…Kay’s family has paid for it and you think she’s going to sit back and keep her mouth shut while someone else bags the money we are out or our damned minds.
My World History teacher at ECU, Poppadopalus (sp?)…
Chicago’s Greek-American population
The Third Rail and Michael Harvey’s Chicago « Knopf Doubleday – Mystery
…had ouzo only once in my life. Not to my liking.
#2 the Asian looking fellow reminds me of Chaz in her early pics on the Sonny and Cher show…
What's In Kay's Mind?: I have seen a few of these mustaches, shadows in the mirror…
…he must have pulled the cord on the gallows…
The Magnificent Seven ~ Riding the “L” in Chicago…corrected image update
Kay rode the “L” in Chicago in 1983…
I have seen a few of these mustaches, shadows in the mirror…
From left to right, I’ve noticed, 1,7 and 3. #3 looks like Cher in one of her Caesar’s Palace sets.
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Dicovery Channel’s Pushing The Limits…
…Last night, someone was eating Blackeyed Peas, crackers, someone drank a glass of milk, another a cup of coffee, and another a coke and then some ice cream.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Some people have confused me with another person who wants to weigh 300 lbs…
Kay Gibbs does not want to weigh 300 lbs. She does even want to weigh the 180 lbs she now weighs. She is trying to get her weight back down to 125-130 lbs. So please stop trying to big her up. She does not want to be bigged up.
I know this is in the mix…have not seen it - updated
…had my bicycle stolen a week after I moved into my first apartment here where I live. I know who took it.
Update: Mothers and mother figures are often the objects of projections.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Monday, December 19, 2011
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Sunday, December 18, 2011
Here is a scooter pic not the one I am thinking of…
IMCDb.org: Piaggio Vespa in "Grazie... nonna, 1975"
…the scene that sticks out in my mind was a young boy on a scooter driving through a narrow street in Italy I think and he stops and this girl gets on…might be B&W film…I recall a big round fountain in the picture…may have stolen something and run off with it on the scooter…
Riding on back of small motorcycle with Art…
Some Italian or French film, not sure which film – girl hops onto back of cycle with boy…late 60’s or early 70’s might already be out of it…
Duchess of Alba with Cruise – really looks like Jacqueline’s figure – is it really?
1st and 2nd from the back left, in the middle seated…
Someone must have been studying this images, this is the first time I have seen this photograph today…
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This is what part of the apartment looked like, where the two girls lived, my part of it was in the front with all the windows…
What's In Kay's Mind?: I did smoke a pipe in 1984…update 3
This is an image from a Cher Video – Strong Enough…my part of the house was on the other side of the french doors and the kitchen was through this room on the left through another door…
Alice stole the rent money - $20? pounds…update 3 corrections
What's In Kay's Mind?: I did smoke a pipe in 1984…update 3
…she had a dog a greyhound…
She and Angela actually stole $300.00 from Beth and I. It was before this time Kathy had moved in with Terry and I and the peeping tom showed up, when I prayed the 23rd Psalm…
I was wearing flip flops when I injured by left big toe – 50’s model sneakers when I injured my right…
Left toe was injured from dropping my dictionary on it, right toe from kicking a chair while in prison.
I have not had any injuries to my left thumb…updated
What's In Kay's Mind?: I did smoke a pipe in 1984…update 3
…I have injured both my big toes and my left ring finger got smashed while folding up a Gazzle exercise equipment. Left toe was injured from dropping my dictionary on it, right toe from kicking a chair while in prison.
The Piano – got her finger cut off for the ring…
I did smoke a pipe in 1984…update 3
She preferred the smoke of a pipe, which was soon to grant her the name "Clay Pipe" Alice by her friends and acquaintances. Her left thumb was also injured in what was no doubt some sort of industrial accident.
Casebook: Jack the Ripper - Alice Mackenzie
…This is around the time I went to see the psychiatrist [McKenzie might have been to the Salvation Army Shelter where she got off the drink]. I was having panic attacks and suffered from extreme paranoia and was agoraphobic at the time I was smoking the pipe, living on Cabarrus Street, renting a room with two other women, who were gay.
I have seen her as Alice…she was not buxom, pear shaped, facial features look more like those evolved from a chimpanzee, buck teeth, thick lips, loud but very friendly…
McKenzie ~ Lipper…
Casebook: Jack the Ripper - Alice Mackenzie
Susan Lipper – these images may be of import – some of them are similar to ones I have taken…
Looks like Ripper Victim…updated
…image from Lumbee Tribe Site. Looks like McKenzie Ripper Victim.
Cole down under…
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Hulu - Terraces - Watch the full movie now. I’m sure this is one…just viewed it - updated
Hulu - Terraces - Watch the full movie now.
This is where the voice is coming from…I saw a girl walking a dog like the one in this film a few days ago and she was wearing a coat styled from that period.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
What is a paradox…
After reading this article I had to conclude either I didn’t really know what a paradox was and I had been confused or I did know and the Oxford article was erroneously penned, maybe deliberately.
I had to view Woman in Green to discover what happened and what caused me to become hypnotized, risking being hypnotized again and using the same deductive reasoning Holmes did to find the cause and get myself out of the situation. This is what I think a paradox is really all about, it is like the Ouroboros or a Mobius or the symbol for infinity. In the film Holmes recovered from a hypnotic induction with the help of a pill, to save himself and capture the criminals and is sort of prophetic for the viewer.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Incoming…
“What is mazel tov”?
I have been hearing this a lot. It has infuriated me because I don’t give a damn what it means.
I heard this just a minute ago, “You will laugh it off when you hear this”…
Something else I discovered about many NLP books…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Jahalia was happening and had happened right here in America…
…they are written with you and your, the majority of them. After I process that information I will be projecting it onto others, and I will be helping them instead of myself. Most of them do not even teach me NLP but teach others NLP using my mind which then gets dissociated and is likely to be used against me.
I mentioned this in my commentary about projection and mirror work mentioned in The Magic of Believing. This set the stage for it. They followed up with other books they knew they would profit from, all the while the reader is still struggling and can not figure out why what he is reading isn’t working for him so he keeps reading all kinds of books.
Kay is a testament to this fact in numerous situations.
Jahalia was happening and had happened right here in America…
#!/2011/08/power-of-nightmares.html
Neurolinguistic Programming, a case of helping or hurting?
…this is what I mentioned about TV stripping those who view it of sensibilities and their rise to civility. On the one hand the Government talks about a decrease in crime but a rise in familial violence.
What I don’t understand is why American leaders look to foreign academics to tell us who we are or want to be and what we should do. The only thing they seem to be teaching Americans is how to shift terrorism onto innocents.
A hidden threat to America – Bernays, a Jewish propagandist, and Women in Green, a hypnotic trance implanted in the film, poisoning the minds of millions on a machine created by a Scotsman.
Leo Strauss – a Jew political academic
Although I felt I was helped by Eales, it is now clear she was looking at me through her own projections…
…and still yet another “professional” failed to see that I was in real need of help. We never really touched on any “real Issues” in my life that were the source of the problem. This did begin to happen with Dr. McNeil.
This is the biggest problem I have experienced with Mental Health and health care in general. They see patients through the eyes of their own educations about mental illness and disease. They can try and fit people into the many pages they read but it doesn’t work. Generally I felt a grave lack of real concern for my wellbeing or any ability to help me care for myself. My greatest success has come from books and practicing what they taught.
I felt the money I spent was used more to help them clean up the crap they learned that became a part of their minds.
What's In Kay's Mind?: I never connected Stepford Wives with the Sherlock Holmes film Woman in Green until I wrote the Commentary post…
… Neurolinguistic Programming, a case of helping or hurting, but after my recent viewing of Stepford Wives, it is clear they were finding out someone (me possibly or my mother or any other female who may have seen Woman in Green) was projecting that part of the self away from themselves. First the WIG is projected onto one of Joanna’s twin girls signified by her green blouse she is wearing when she gets onto the school bus for the first time. This was acted out in my youth when I gave away my Barbie doll, which looked like the WIG, to my sister one Christmas and was symbolic of my projecting it onto my sister and it was likely projected onto me from one of my Aunts or Mother or some unknown. It was also further re-enacted between my sister and brother when my sister chased by brother around the house with her Chatty Kathy (Kathy Hall, the writer?) doll that talked – the scene in which she lured Holmes to her apartment – there could also be scenes between my Aunt and Uncle.
Then WIG is transferred to an automobile, a green station wagon, prompting me to write a short mechanimorphic (for lack of a better word to describe the essay) kind of essay on someone’s erotic feelings about a woman described as an automobile. I wrote it in the 90’s. This nicely written essay has been misplaced and I have not located it as of yet (lots of papers to go through) or it is lost. This was brought out in Adam Curtis’ film Century of the Self, when marketers bought into Bernays’ ideas about how to get at the consumer via his most innate drives and desires and exploit them. This transference prompted our family to purchase a light green 60’s model Chevrolet and then in 1970 a green Plymouth, a deeper green than the Chevrolet (must go deeper) and then Kay purchased her own car a green Volkswagon. The woman in green, the seductress had now become something other than a woman, she became an automobile. Every man who watched that film would likely have been attracted to the woman in green. It is evident in my family.
This is how only a small group can become so very powerful. I feel certain this is someone from New York with whom my father may have had a psychic connection during the war. He was stationed on Long Island in 1939 before shipping out to Long Beach and then the Pacific to Iwo Jima and Okinawa.
_____________________
I also wore the usual Army green issue while enlisted in the US Army in 1974-75. While I had many issues to deal with in my youth, it is clear this film and other films like it may have contributed to the problem and to others thinking I was a lesbian. I never thought of myself as a lesbian. I never thought of myself as being in the wrong body, I just never entertained those ideas. Once after I heard about Christine Jorgenson, I thought about changing my sex, but it was because I was angry, but I wasn’t just angry at my father, but men and my mother and at that point in the Army, women too. I was just plain angry and it got worse and the anger grew into a big rage that I took out on myself making my body sick.
Right now I among many, feel as if I have been chosen as the sacrifice for every evil thing done to another. I am tired of it.
Monday, December 12, 2011
I have heard the thoughts of others in this manner, without using the spoken word…
While she never mentions setting fire to the school killing her sister, it is there in her mind and without speaking she transfers it to this other person.
Re: One Step Beyond, Dead Ringer… | Kay's Film Analysis
…for a very long time I was unable to hear because of the noise and traffic in my own mind and brain. It was quite shocking the first time I started to really hear someone say something to me with their mind. This led me to believe I had been frequently manipulated this way.
I went to Medford, MA…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Kay Medford - IMDb
…a grateful dumb ass as some so crudely put it, for not knowing all there is to know about everything in the world or about Hollywood. At least you can see where my family’s loyalties were.
I never connected Stepford Wives with the Sherlock Holmes film Woman in Green until I wrote the Commentary post…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Saw this – looking for clues…
… Neurolinguistic Programming, a case of helping or hurting, but after my recent viewing of Stepford Wives, it is clear they were finding out someone (me possibly or my mother or any other female who may have seen Woman in Green) was projecting that part of the self away from themselves. First the WIG is projected onto one of Joanna’s twin girls signified by her green blouse she is wearing when she gets onto the school bus for the first time. This was acted out in my youth when I gave away my Barbie doll, which looked like the WIG, to my sister one Christmas and was symbolic of my projecting it onto my sister and it was likely projected onto me from one of my Aunts or Mother or some unknown. It was also further re-enacted between my sister and brother when my sister chased by brother around the house with her Chatty Kathy (Kathy Hall, the writer?) doll that talked – the scene in which she lured Holmes to her apartment – there could also be scenes between my Aunt and Uncle.
Then WIG is transferred to an automobile, a green station wagon, prompting me to write a short mechanimorphic (for lack of a better word to describe the essay) kind of essay on someone’s erotic feelings about a woman described as an automobile. I wrote it in the 90’s. This nicely written essay has been misplaced and I have not located it as of yet (lots of papers to go through) or it is lost. This was brought out in Adam Curtis’ film Century of the Self, when marketers bought into Bernays’ ideas about how to get at the consumer via his most innate drives and desires and exploit them. This transference prompted our family to purchase a light green 60’s model Chevrolet and then in 1970 a green Plymouth, a deeper green than the Chevrolet (must go deeper) and then Kay purchased her own car a green Volkswagon. The woman in green, the seductress had now become something other than a woman, she became an automobile. Every man who watched that film would likely have been attracted to the woman in green. It is evident in my family.
This is how only a small group can become so very powerful. I feel certain this is someone from New York with whom my father may have had a psychic connection during the war. He was stationed on Long Island in 1939 before shipping out to Long Beach and then the Pacific to Iwo Jima and Okinawa.
_____________________
I also wore the usual Army green issue while enlisted in the US Army in 1974-75. While I had many issues to deal with in my youth, it is clear this film and other films like it may have contributed to others thinking I was a lesbian. I never thought of myself as a lesbian. I never thought of myself as being in the wrong body, I just never entertained those ideas. Once after I heard about Christine Jorgenson, I thought about changing my sex, but it was because I was angry, but I wasn’t just angry at my father, but men and my mother and at that point in the Army, women too. I was just plain angry and it got worse and the anger grew into a big rage that I took out on myself making my body sick.
Right now I among many, feel as if I have been chosen as the sacrifice for every evil thing done to another. I am tired of it.
I don’t think I’ve seen this either but someone I am enmeshed with must have…
Revenge of the Stepford Wives (TV 1980) - IMDb
Could be Dr. Levin who I saw in 1980 about my bronchitis.
Sunday, December 11, 2011
The mustache in Stepford Wives triggered my memories of Turning Point…
…I was doing ballet gestures with my hands and I recognized the facial aura…
This was such a great movie…
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Incoming…
“I’m tired of this girl”, “I can’t get my novel written”.
“I can’t believe this”.
That’s interesting. I can’t believe this? Like she owes you something.
Virtues are nice but I smell a rat here…
…Rand preached the Virtue of Selfishness one our country has not yet learned and it’s lack exacting a very high cost, for example 9/11.
Patience, charity, liberality, they all open the door for one to take advantage of another. Too much liberalness and you create a need for greed. Too much charity and you create a need for greed because one becomes wanton…
The Virtues Project - “the rising violence in families”…
What's In Kay's Mind?: Forbin ~ Bronif…?
…I thought crime was going down.
Re: Dr. Butterfield…
…Dr. Butterfield died from breast cancer and my cousin Jo Ellen Gibbs (who I thought resembled Virginia Woolf) died from breast cancer in 1997 or so.
Once again semantics becomes an issue…
…ie, “I have to finish cleaning my apartment today”. To Kay, the speaker, it connotes dusting, sweeping, mopping, dish washing, walking clothes to the laundry, LITERALLY. To writers and film makers and those who call themselves CLEANERS, (“would you press my shirts please, I like a little starch"), this housekeeping means taking out things of the mind by writing a book or diary or film script which includes extensive dialoguing, thought generation and consumption by the writer and exhausting synaptic activity that occupies ones time while trying to do the real housekeeping (which they have cleaned out of your mind so you have to create it again) so much so that you get nothing done. One might even find one’s self locked into the chair for hours while this is going on.
Kay is a literal person and she means to be taken literally. She knows where things come from in her mind and she will tell you. If she cannot find the origin she will tell you that too.
Red…updated
Watson on board a Navy ship operating a gun after the gunner froze up from a stress attack, WWII. I got rammed with a grocery cart, I had a lot of stuff in 3 or 4 storages I connected those to a place first in Chapel Hill, then in Massachusetts (see previous post – link coming soon), possible drug trafficking.
Friday, December 9, 2011
I’m wearing Howard Leight hearing protectors and I hear someone listening to the radio…
“forget about it…”, the song.
Butterfield 8…update 4
My birth certificate was mixed up with someone’s father who was a demolitions expert, my father was not in demolition, he was in the Coast Guard on an LST, his brother was in the Navy. My cousin was a Medic and the other a Marine, not demolition.
I did see this film after the 2007 event, some of it.
Crouse Hospital in Syracuse, NY – never been there, only New York City for a few hours.
WWII Vets Vernon Mead, Skip Warren, my father, my grandfathers…
Vietnam Vets, Sam Secrest, my cousins and lots of other people I know and I was in the Army at the end of Vietnam…
My psychiatrist at the Durham, VA, Dr. Butterfield
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I have seen some of these…
Very talented actress, I recall one of her movies I watched that made an impression on me too! I also like some of Nolan’s films another talented actor.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
High fat high protein diets for cold climates…
not better for people living in milder climates. Brown fat helps keep the body warmer. Could this be where Atkins got mixed up?
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Saturday, December 3, 2011
The brain creates the body…
Ingrown Toenails Causes, Symptoms, Treatment and Prevention by eMedicineHealth.com
Sometime ago I looked at this site as I had injured my toenail and it was growing back poorly. Some of the nail had started to grow deeper into the skin than originally and was becoming painful. I found this site and looked at the image and weeks later my toenail got worse, starting to curl under the skin. Is it the mind/body connection or just a projection of what I had seen on this site?
Before this event I had questioned whether the trees or lightening may have helped create the cortex of the human brain starting in the most primitive parts of our existence. Due to the atmosphere at the time of the dinosaurs it was likely riddled with lots of electrical activity. Did they all die out? Did some survive? Did this environmental activity continue on until new life began to spring up and re-emerge? Did dinosaurs leave behind this psychic matter that was then possessed by other sea dwelling creatures who made their way back to the sea before their extinction? They would remain alive. Did this set the stage for sea dwellers to become amphibians and then land animals?
I am finally seeing and feeling the realities and truth of this statement. Of my body as a living breathing and constantly changing being not only because of what I put into my body but what I put into my mind.
This would not be a genetic/biological basis for schizophrenia…
adult-onset schizophrenia is genetically influenced and often traceable to uterine trauma or difficult birth
In some cases this is still true…
At one time, the mentally ill were diagnosed as demonically possessed;
Re: killing first borns…
I came to understand the desire to kill firstborns in biblical times. Was it bordering on psychic murder?
It seems from what I said that Herod did not realize his own projections but were they his? Were they just rumors in order to get rid of the people? Was there an illegitimate heir? They were likely those of the King of Ai as he was called a prophet, who Herod set out to kill. If they were Herod’s he failed to recognize them and set out to destroy that part of himself, killing innocent people in the process. King’s are like prophets.
In the case of Nebuchadnezzar, he mistrusted Daniel to render an accurate interpretation of his dream. Daniel apparently had his own agenda going and they were led into war. I think the dream was about Neb’s fear of ending up like his father, represented in the destruction of the Colossus. Fear of losing his head, hands and legs…
I drew a sketch in 1990 of a woman with no hand, no head and no legs below the knee. I was in the psychiatric hospital when I did the drawing.
Then they are the luckiest, they don’t have crap to contend with…
Slaves don't have souls (The Fine Art of Love)...
Incoming…
“suck my dick off”.
Kay Gibbs is not a cleaner, has never been a cleaner, is never going to be a cleaner and will stop this kind of thing from going on.
Tipping The Velvet only inferred these things it did not put this dialogue into my head, someone else did.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
I was playing frisbee last night…
I passed some people next to Sunstone in the parking lot of this small office building where meetings are often held across the street from the BBQ place. This was on Thanksgiving Day. They were playing frisbee with some dogs and older people.
Hung up there I guess.
Last night someone engaged me in conversation about this and I used the word translocation…
Kay's Film Analysis: One Step Beyond, Dead Ringer - 3rd revision…
…it came to me after hearing the word bi-location near the end of the film which was used to refer to the location of Esther’s soul in a place outside herself. Translocation would be the same as projective identification, which is a putting of something from the psyche or mind into another without disclosing the entirety of what is being put in, for instance Esther might have mentioned to some friend that she was in a fire in her youth and maybe even mentioned her sister was there but was living elsewhere. While she never mentions setting fire to the school killing her sister, it is there in her mind and without speaking she transfers it to this other person. This is the translocation and transference. She has put into the other her emotional state as well as her thoughts about having set the fire, which never really leave her, they are merely separated from her consciousness. The recipient of this translocation of trauma may not be aware this is happening to them and may even be rendered unconscious after it has occurred. They may then begin to re-enact the events sometimes even in a kind of reverse order. Esther fell ill and fainted each time the other person set a fire and as was mentioned, fires were reported in several places. Because the person setting the fires was unaware of the cause in order to stop it they kept repeating it and would keep repeating it until a resolution was reached.
This brought to light in my mind that most cases of trauma did not originate in every individual although one might be harmed by the re-enactment, which is a repeating of the trauma until the cause has been uncovered and resolved. This repeating does not have to lay with one person but many people could have been subjected to Esther’s accident before the truth would be discovered.
It is that which is unknown that causes the most problems.