Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I just had a ham sandwich and a Dr. Pepper…updated

…who has apricot colored hair?

Experiments in Mental Suggestion, L.L. Vasiliev…

Introduction, pg XXXV; chp 4 Mental Suggestion of Motor Acts, pgs 27, 33, 35.

Dream Telepathy, Ullman, Krippner and Vaughn

Mind to Mind, Warcollier

Entangled Minds, Dean Radin

Someone was hit in the head with a golf club…

…don’t know who it was…

Cane maybe, but I think it was a gold club…

This is the one who was messing with one or several of the victims…updated

Richard Brown,

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - Daily News - 19 November 1888

This is how this stuff got over here…If Carrie Brown had lived she would have been able to tell us who the killer was…

My cousin’s wife is named Connie Brown…

Remember the Civil War…

carrie Spencer gibbs

Necklace…update 3

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: I bet this is a piece of jewelry too!

A pearl rope necklace…four small strands wrapped into one big one…

http://www.aliexpress.com/product-fm-img/380768221-Excellent-south-sea-white-baroque-pearl-necklace-17-shipping-free-wholesalers.html  ??????????????? 

The above is not what I had in mind…

Possibility - http://www.lindarichmond.com/Beadwork_Instructions_4.html

Something like this much finer design and smaller white pearls…

This one - http://www.pearlove.com/pn316-jade-pearl-twisted-necklace-p-2356.html ???????

Copy of cleaning how it worksFile:Hans Holbein d. J. 032b.jpg

Another sketch long before the bell hop…

 bell hop asian man

What you might also have is someone…updated

the substance of which he repeated on Saturday. His contention is that when a person has committed a grave crime, the knowledge thereof becomes the dominant idea in the mind, and that if the criminal be suddenly confronted with something closely connected with the act, his mind communicates to his body an unconscious leaning towards the object in question which may be used to substantiate his guilt.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - Evening News - 19 November 1888

…who is a victim of the culprit’s actions…

I mean that maybe Mr. Cumberland might have purchased a gold watch at a price cheaper than its worth and he thought it was a “steal”.

Sand ~ Nice

I drew a picture of someone…

around the time I drew the Ripper mark…he was black, wearing a red hat, like a porter or bell hop in a hotel.  It looks a bit like Stride to me, maybe Eddowes but more like Stride…this was before I had seen the bodies of the victims…

bell hop

Two had been in prison one in jail…

Woman in the Dunes (1964) - IMDb

Woman in the Dunes (1964) - IMDb

I drank some Tequila when in Asheboro, 1973 ~ Castenada…got very sick, the film reminded me of it today…

I thought this was a very well done film although I had to read subtitles.  The message is powerful.

My father drank moonshine ~ it seems possible that someone drank some bleach by mistake and lost their teeth or something…my father lost all of his teeth from pyorrhea but I think it was from the spirit.

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: I am having a problem sleeping…updated

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: I am having a problem sleeping…updated

I have mentioned this before.

I think it’s because of the psychic connections.  Some are trying to tap my mind at night for a story.  Having been born at 14 minutes past midnight my mind often starts to wake up and then I am unable to sleep but my body is tired and wants to sleep because I have been up and active all day.   During the day I feel like I am sleep walking.  I hear voices of writers trying to engage me in dialoguing and sometimes at night, I hear the voices of various people trying to get Victoria’s story which I have been mixed up in or the Jack the Ripper Story or some other story or some film that’s mixed up in my mind or that I have seen or is in someone else’s mind I am connected to or some music I have listened to or that someone else has heard to whom I am connected.  The music sometimes shows up at night when I am trying to sleep.   This makes for a serious sleep problem and I have become progressively more dysfunctional.    When the people I am connected to go to sleep, some of them dissociate their daytime activities.  This also awakens my mind with mental activity I am not familiar with.  

I have repeatedly requested benzodiazepines for sleep.  My sister gets them, my mother gets them, but for some reason they will not give them to me.   This has been the pattern throughout my life of not getting adequate sleep and the drugs I have taken over the years have not amounted to a handful as I have only taken one or two at the time, rarely consistently, except for the two overdoses.   Alcohol is the only thing I have used on a consistent basis.   As I said, during the day I feel as if I am sleep walking, I feel drowsy then I have to take something to wake me up, caffeine or tea.   I went through this same problem while in college.   I had to take black beauties or Dexedrine or some kind of upper to stay awake during the day.   It affected my performance, I started abusing alcohol more often, eventually dropped out of college and joined the Army where I got even less sleep than I had in college.   One would think it would be cumulative and that I should be sleeping a lot but I haven’t because of the conditions of my environment, noise, and  how my brain has been rewired by the television, films and music.  

I DO NOT CLEAN MINDS.  I am not interested in funding someone financial needs with my mind or brain.  I have requested the drugs from two different hospitals. 

The Power of Your Subconscious Mind, The Wonders of Sleep, page 192.   I read an older version of this book in the 80’s in which Murphy talked about a man who won the Guinness Book of Records for going without sleep, one I have no interest in, but someone certainly intended me trying out for it.   In this updated version to which I have linked, it is clear that one can be driven to do just about anything for sleep including spending outrageous sums of money for medications or even murder.

As I mentioned earlier, I have made no agreements to permit myself to be involved in any psychological studies on sleep.   I was involved in one sleep study in 1998 at the Durham, VA but that has long been over.  I did get a prescription recently for only 20 tabs and I had to take more than one and it was just beginning to work when they ran out. 

I know Susan had a problem with my being single and not having the responsibility of a child so she concluded that putting me in prison would take care of my trying to GET OUT of having any responsibility by having me listen to all their horror stories and screaming and yelling, which she manipulated me into on three occasions, thus cleaning up her and Helen’s Spear’s parenting habits.   They took little care to determine that I had already been subjected to my mother’s and aunt’s parenting history.  

NO MORE.  I NEED SOME SLEEP.

For the sake of people who think I am drunk.

klonopin bottle

Error – This is a Japanese Macaque…

Wallpapers > Animals > BABOONS IN THE MINERAL SPRINGS 1600 X 1200 ANIMAL WALLPAPER DESKTOP.JPG @ HD Wallpapers

Elwes ~ Sewell????????

My folder like this blew off the top of my car, got wet along…

File:Simon Elwes 1922.jpg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…with all of my drawings inside…

Dominick Elwes - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Dominick Elwes - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This is the one…

I am having a problem sleeping…updated

I have mentioned this before.

I think it’s because of the psychic connections.  Some are trying to tap my mind at night for a story.  Having been born at 14 minutes past midnight my mind often starts to wake up and then I am unable to sleep but my body is tired and wants to sleep because I have been up and active all day.   During the day I feel like I am sleep walking.  I hear voices of writers trying to engage me in dialoguing and sometimes at night, I hear the voices of various people trying to get Victoria’s story which I have been mixed up in or the Jack the Ripper Story or some other story or some film that’s mixed up in my mind or that I have seen or is in someone else’s mind I am connected to or some music I have listened to or that someone else has heard to whom I am connected.  The music sometimes shows up at night when I am trying to sleep.   This makes for a serious sleep problem and I have become progressively more dysfunctional.    When the people I am connected to go to sleep, some of them dissociate their daytime activities.  This also awakens my mind with mental activity I am not familiar with.  

I have repeatedly requested benzodiazepines for sleep.  My sister gets them, my mother gets them, but for some reason they will not give them to me.   This has been the pattern throughout my life of not getting adequate sleep and the drugs I have taken over the years have not amounted to a handful as I have only taken one or two at the time, rarely consistently, except for the two overdoses.   Alcohol is the only thing I have used on a consistent basis.   As I said, during the day I feel as if I am sleep walking, I feel drowsy then I have to take something to wake me up, caffeine or tea.   I went through this same problem while in college.   I had to take black beauties or Dexedrine or some kind of upper to stay awake during the day.   It affected my performance, I started abusing alcohol more often, eventually dropped out of college and joined the Army where I got even less sleep than I had in college.   One would think it would be cumulative and that I should be sleeping a lot but I haven’t because of the conditions of my environment, noise, and  how my brain has been rewired by the television, films and music.  

I DO NOT CLEAN MINDS.  I am not interested in funding someone financial needs with my mind or brain.  I have requested the drugs from two different hospitals. 

The Power of Your Subconscious Mind, The Wonders of Sleep, page 192.   I read an older version of this book in the 80’s in which Murphy talked about a man who won the Guinness Book of Records for going without sleep, one I have no interest in, but someone certainly intended me trying out for it.   In this updated version to which I have linked, it is clear that one can be driven to do just about anything for sleep including spending outrageous sums of money for medications or even murder.

As I mentioned earlier, I have made no agreements to permit myself to be involved in any psychological studies on sleep.   I was involved in one sleep study in 1998 at the Durham, VA but that has long been over.  I did get a prescription recently for only 20 tabs and I had to take more than one and it was just beginning to work when they ran out. 

I know Susan had a problem with my being single and not having the responsibility of a child so she concluded that putting me in prison would take care of my trying to GET OUT of having any responsibility by having me listen to all their horror stories and screaming and yelling, which she manipulated me into on three occasions, thus cleaning up her and Helen’s Spear’s parenting habits.   They took little care to determine that I had already been subjected to my mother’s and aunt’s parenting history.  

NO MORE.  I NEED SOME SLEEP.

NLP is how it works…

How Self-Control Works: Scientific American

Burning of the library at Alexandria Egypt…

The burning of Charleston (1861) – as told in Harper’s Weekly « The Civil War Gazette

I don’t think this story is all together accurate…

…the story about the leg might have been about the pirate…

The Death of John Wilkes Booth, 1865

My father shooting the pig in 1967 was the other part of it…

…he took his rifle and walked to the barn.   I was behind him.   He fired one shot.

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: It has just come to me that Cher’s attitude about Republicans sounds…updated

I related the fire I set to Schoolcraft who was a Union Soldier who was part of the setting of the fire in Charleston, SC. 

As you can see I am not much of a history buff, I don’t read it. 

I did connect the Manson saga to this…and Manson was in prison in Petersburg, VA

I went to Boston ~ only went through it…

Virginia 12 days later, where he was tracked down and shot by Boston Corbett, a Union soldier who acted against orders. Eight

John Wilkes Booth - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Monday, May 30, 2011

It has just come to me that Cher’s attitude about Republicans sounds…updated

like it could be John Wilkes Booth…

I just read something about some things she said on the telephone to a radio show…In 1989 I jumped over the railing of the deck of the house where I was living just before being arrested,  just like Booth jumped over the presidential box…

I think he injured his right leg…

I'm really angry with Cher right now

I'm really angry with Cher right now

I do not post on the blog above…

Incoming…

“…he was shot in the back point blank”.  

My father was shot in the chest.   I think the John Wilkes Booth story was mixed up in this tragedy.

He rubbed her tummy a lot while she was pregnant…

Q Vickie’s wedding????????? updated

I have a relative named Vickie Gibbs…

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Snake Triple Ring - Anthropologie.com

Dating to the Victorian era, when Prince Albert gave Queen Victoria an emerald-headed snake engagement ring, vaulting serpentine jewelry into popularity as a symbol of eternal love.

Snake Triple Ring - Anthropologie.com

I used to like emeralds and wore Emeraud Perfume while in high school…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?

…sand rows in this film…maybe film maker was seeing a flag…to me it was like someone who was in hot weather and delirious, I think that is why there were the distortions I was seeing, as I have seen things since that are more clear not distorted.

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?

Of course the zen garden was created before I learned of the film and have been using the garden for sometime…

zen garden

Laying out the cross…

The dark ring on the table is not a piece of jewelry, it is wax from my candle snuffer…it might represent the serpentine ring in the scheme of things…

I also thought of this as some kind of formal procession and the cross as well…which means the person might be positioned in that specific place…then it could be a nickel on the pavement or whatever…it could be the bearer of the ring acquisitioning the cross…

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Amygdala adenosine A1 receptors have no anticonvulsant effect on piriform cortex-kindled seizures in rat - Canadian Journal of Physiology and Pharmacology

Amygdala adenosine A1 receptors have no anticonvulsant effect on piriform cortex-kindled seizures in rat - Canadian Journal of Physiology and Pharmacology

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: The one below was sensing or witnessing the splitting of the personality…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: The one below was sensing or witnessing the splitting of the personality…

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http://kaysart18.blogspot.com/2010/11/kays-pyramid-work.html

Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamondspyramidbase10

Incoming…

“Tell me your dreams”…

Three Cases of Murder…

In The Picture

BolinCreek

Looking for sunlight

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Women of the Dunes…

I think I accidentally ate some moth balls when I was a child…

I don’t mean for people to suffer for this, I mean to keep people from suffering…

Freudian slip, “transmitting”…

…did they hear Cia Lun’s process for making paper????

Plato and Aristotle were translated into Persian here, and chess was introduced from India. Persia was at the center of the global economy, exporting its own pearls and textiles, and transmitting Chinese paper and silk and Indian spices to Europe. The murals are all gone now, but some of the ruins of Ctesiphon remain:

The Language of Food: Ceviche and Fish & Chips

Georg Büchner - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Georg Büchner - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Gannibal ~ Buchner…

File:Gannibal I A.jpg

LSD experience…

…sand rows in this film…maybe film maker was seeing a flag…to me it was like someone who was in hot weather and delirious, I think that is why there were the distortions I was seeing, as I have seen things since that are more clear not distorted.

Paper making…

…I was given a brass tray that was about the size of Ancient papyrus…I think the pulp was rolled out into it…I used it as a Zen Garden…

Jones - Egyptologist….

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Woman in the Dunes…

Woman in the Dunes…

…I know I acted some of this out with school mates and friends in Nags Head, NC.

Cai Lun?   Looks like he’s on the chopping block in one scene…

When Time Ran Out – Paul Newman and Jacqueline Bisset…

So maybe it wasn’t Vesuvius but Fuji…

May be linked to jeweler…

Bijelo Dugme - Lazes Lyrics

My dream of being chased by snakes…

chased by someone wearing that serpentine ring…

The hierarchy…

Trauma caused the parent to dissociate and it continued to split…and sort of fan out, well it seems that way but it doesn’t it just gets more complex…unraveling the serpentine ring…

[Copy%2520of%2520HARRIS%2520ENMESHMENT%255B5%255D.jpg]

enmeshment cleo

Kay Gibbs is not an official member of Scientology…

I do understand it, like I said it is like therapy except there are a few things added to the process…

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Waltham Abbey (abbey) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia - updated

the creation of a new ceiling (showing signs of the zodiac as at Peterborough Cathedral),

Waltham Abbey (abbey) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This cross bears the sign of the fish…

I went to school with Harold…

crucifix

Waltham Abbey, Essex - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Waltham Abbey, Essex - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Waltham Cross…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Waltham watches…

Waltham watches…

John Still - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Drama: Gammer Gurton's Needle

Drama: Gammer Gurton's Needle

Gammer ~ an old woman…the Egyptian bust – Brimmage ~ Grammie

burrus tagore

Laying out the cross…update 3

…the jeweler apparently had the pieces in the tray…

image

My mother visited Zales frequently in VA that also sold jewelry, a department store turned Jewelry store…I have been building up to this over a period of years…

Greek parthenon…

chessboard 1

a horse injured while jousting????

HORSE%255B3%255D.jpg (image)

K-143

glen%2520holly%2520house%255B3%255D.jpg (image)

Notice the left upper corner – the clay cross relief seems to resemble it…

Teahouse or coffeehouse maybe or the artist studio…

Uyghur influence

glen holly house

A piece of jewelry…

…Plummer plantation…The Vatican?

plummer plantation

Chess board…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: The one below was sensing or witnessing the splitting of the personality…

laying out the jewelry…

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P1110005

incoming…

…I really do believe your little ass is mixed up in that thing”…

I AM NOT MIXED UP.   IT IS PART OF MY FAMILY’S HISTORY TOO, remember that.

The one below was sensing or witnessing the splitting of the personality…

Up where the heavens were dividing

Emmy Lou Harris lyrics - Michelangelo

Dual personalities splitting

Asexuality ~ the It Girl…

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Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamonds

Emmylou Harris, Michelangelo Lyrics

Last night I dreamed about you
I dreamed that you were riding
On a blood-red painted pony
Up where the heavens were dividing
And the angels turned to ashes
You came tumbling with them to the earth
So Far below
Michelangelo

Emmylou Harris, Michelangelo Lyrics

HORSE

Carrie ~ metaphorical??????????

It was Kelly who gave a red scarf to someone…

…she or someone wore it in the workhouse…

Emmy Lou Harris Red Dirt Girl album comes to mind…some of the songs…

The song was Michelangelo…”did you wear the scarf I gave you”…

 Image4 kayfish

This is a red scarf…

kaymustang

Tobacco…

I have sniffed it and smoked it, tried chewing it…

some of my family have used snuff in the mouth…

I know quite a bit about shop keeping…

Kelly only appeared to be intoxicated…it was Martha Tabram or someone Martha was enmeshed with who was given to drink…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?

…my Aunt, Uncle and Great Uncle having owned smalls stores of their own and having spent a good many years myself employed in discount chains such a Nichol’s Discount Center.

This would be how Kelly became enmeshed with the street women and how she found herself falling into depravity…

Incoming…update

…this girl’s drunk…

WRONG.  Kelly was mixed up with Abberline, supposedly, who smoked opium.  

Now it may be that this is a fallacy since discovering Cai Lun in the mix…the opium den…

Kelly only appeared to be intoxicated…it was Martha Tabram or someone Martha was enmeshed with who was given to drink…

Which is highly unlikely…update 3

It is far more powerful than a tale of a lone madman stalking women.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

…as we are all influenced by our parenting and our associations throughout life…

It seems Rumbelow prefers the scapegoat theory…his own profession created to protect the innocent from such enmeshments…

My father was a Mason…

When I went to Salisbury…

I was suicidal…

I would argue these statements about Knight’s assumptions…updated

This is symptomatic of the entire problem with Knight's book and the Sickert theory. It is based entirely on assumptions. There is no direct, objective evidence to link Eddy with Annie, Gull with Sickert and Netley, or even Warren and Anderson with the Masons. Knight builds his argument through assuming that certain things are true. His proof is loose, lacking in hard facts, and uses them to make further assumptions leading to the murderous trio. It is a veritable house of cards which could be toppled by the removal of the slightest piece of evidence.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

…based on what I know about traumatic re-enactments, what I have experienced via what I consider synchronistic events as a result of the unresolved traumas and what I have learned about the aforementioned through reading and what I have come to understand about emotions and psychic matters.  It is true that Knight provides little concrete evidence to assert beyond doubt that the trio had anything to do with the murders and even then that proof may only be intangible. 

I did consider renting an artists studio…

A great deal of time is spent connecting Eddy with Cleveland Street. At the time, it was considered a great mecca for artists and Knight postulates that Sickert maintained a studio on that street. There is, outside of the story he told his son, nothing to firmly state that he did so.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

I went to the mall, had a sandwich, tea and a glass of wine…

…then went to the tobacco shoppe…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: I did frequent tobacco shops but have never been employed in one…

I did frequent tobacco shops but have never been employed in one…

tobacconist's shop to help Annie

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

Did someone read this book?

My mother has not read any of these Ripper publications.

I did like the aroma…

Suspect might have a wooden tooth…

I lost my right one in an accident…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?

I went to Salisbury…

Salisbury then enlisted the aid of Sir William Gull who was the Queen's personal physician. According to Walter Sickert, Gull had Annie put away in the hospital and performed experiments on her which made her lose her memory, become epileptic, and slowly go insane. The story would have ended there if it had not been for Mary Kelly.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

I met Eddy…

Eddy and a poor Catholic girl named Alice Mary Crook.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

Not a killer…

Oh lord…

I just saw him cut her throat…

I was focused on the Priest I encountered here in Chapel Hill who looks like the Lyons.  Then

He is missing a front, a central incisor, tooth…

I lost my right one in an accident…

Weston Super Mare…?

Hulu - The Night Porter - Watch the full movie now.

The Warped Ones (1960) - The Criterion Collection

The Warped Ones (1960) - The Criterion Collection

I recognized these films, some of them might have already been taken out.  I have not seen them.

21 days

Through a Glass Darkly

The Blog

Rules of The Game

A Married Couple

The Pornographers

Woman in the Dunes

The Night Porter

47 Ronin

M

Mon Oncle

Empire of Passion

The Kid

Knife in the water

Story of a Prostitute

Coup De Grace

Violence at Noon

The Bad Sleep Well

Three CAses of Murder

For Get Me Not

Jules and Jim

Major Barbara

Drunken Angel

Wild Strawberries

Earrings of Madame De

Cleo from 5 to 7

Limelight

Cruel Gun Story

High and Low

The Lost honor of Katharina Blum

Port of Call

Double Suicide

The Idiot

Winter Light

Death of a Cyclist

The Story of a Cheat

Intentions of Murder

Umberto D.

The Masseurs and a Woman

Street Without End

Rusty Knife

To Joy

Ace in the Hole

Princess Charlotte????

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Antique jewelry Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamonds

This woman calls herself Dorothy…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: My neighbor looks like this bust…

My other neighbor looks like this woman…

File:Dorothy Jordan00.jpg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…she’s been homeless like myself…

I also had a black onyx ring and my high school class ring also was black onyx…

Upon the death of Queen Victoria’s husband, Prince Albert (1861) jewelry styles turned much more somber to reflect her mourning and included jet, onyx and black glass. It also became popular to use the woven hair of a loved one as a keepsake in mourning jewelry.

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

Antique jewelry Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamonds

Antique jewelry Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamonds

Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamonds

Copy of HARRIS ENMESHMENT

Fedora ~ Feodora, Victoria’s half-sister…

…she purchased the gold cross or Maud?

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Crosses…

I bet this is a piece of jewelry too!

kind of looks like a dance pattern also, like a waltx…

Copy of cleaning how it works

Crosses…

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

The cross below is not of iron but of red clay…I accidentally struck it and it broke in half…Forget-me-Nots[ ~ Celtic Knots or the resemblance thereof, in cross below] is a song I liked to listen to alot.

I purchased it while with my sister in 2004-2005 could even be 2006 maybe…I am sure I have the receipt for it as I have saved most all of my receipts since 1999…

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Blood Fists I-IV Jeanne Claude Van Damme…

China's last eunuch spills sex secrets | Reuters

China's last eunuch spills sex secrets | Reuters

I know there is a priest mixed up in this stuff…

first I thought he molested my father…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Could be a Priest who was struck by a heart attack…

Friday, May 27, 2011

1975…

…at CT’s everything seemed so dark…roommate threw a bag of pills in the middle of the bed one night…I think it was really a bag of jelly beans…this was after my discharge from the Army…

I took a valium and drank some Vodka, I think someone slipped me a pill when I was in the Army, for sure now, because I wasn’t sleeping.  I don’t think I slept a single night during my basic training.  I wasn’t sleeping during AIT training.  I was paranoid about being possessed.

Could this be a Jade Cross?

gimlet

Could be a Priest who was struck by a heart attack…

…my mother had a heart attack around the time I discovered Sonny’s death…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: She likes the green not the red – Jade? UPDATED

Meditation – InBalance Wellness Series; Peter Storr and Quil Tanachen…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: She likes the green not the red – Jade?

Jade Castle comes to mind…

We made paper mache puppets in elementary school…

little round heads and sock bodies…

She likes the green not the red – Jade? UPDATED

Ancient Uyghur Civilization (2)-Cave art by ancient Uyghurs - Bing Videos

Music sounds like it’s from Wisdom of the Wood CD

Sand and Water and Spirit of The Gael – two of my favorites…

2,3,4,8,9 ones I listened to most often

Copy of woman on cross

woman on the cross2

Caves – up in the sky and dark inside…

Two mountains on the right should not be in picture, nor should cross…I was drawing what I was seeing in the mind.

Thrombotic Thrombocytopenic Purpura

 Possible Green Tea-induced Thrombotic Thrombocytopenic Purpura

Thrombotic Thrombocytopenic Purpura

Blueberry sized hail about 1:35 PM S. Estes Dr Chapel Hill, NC

This was taken after the heaviest amount that fell…

An eagle’s head…

…that’s what Johnny Watson’s head reminded me of an eagle…

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

Incoming…

“…she knows that choline chloride is better for her”…

I hear you people…I know how reverse psychology works…

CDP-Choline - 250 mg, 60 Capsules - Vitamin Research Products…updated

CDP-Choline - 250 mg, 60 Capsules - Vitamin Research Products

I saw a man’s picture on this site that looked like the employee at GNC, MT.

Forget-me-not…

there is a song by that title that I loved and listened to frequently in the 80’s…

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

This looks like the clay cross I have without the crucifix…updated

…maybe some priest’s cross broke or something…if it wasn’t the one hanging in the church…

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

I hit it with my hand dancing about and it broke…

400 Blows film…?

or like I said someone hit a priest in the chest while he was wearing it…

Please remember I live in a different time zone…

and I need to get to sleep earlier.

I can feel you people shifting me around here.

The tiger’s eye ring was designed very similar to this one…

Silver (Alloy) Ring; Sapphire Blue Glass Gemstone.

It looks like maybe the designer had a combination of both in his mind.  It was sterling silver and I got in Greenville while at ECU so chances are some jewelry student created it.

Copy of KayFreshman

Joseph Merrick…?

Maharaja Jewelry — by Shah Jewelry

Mary Magdalene…?

Maybe this tells of what became of them…

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Voynich Map…

Maharaja Jewelry — by Shah Jewelry

This one looks like the Voynich map…

Antique jewelry Antique Jewelry, Estate jewelry and Vintage jewelry

The ring I was wearing was almost Identical to this…

Antique jewelry Signed classical Boucheron ring with high domed tigereye cabochon

Antique jewelry Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamonds

Antique jewelry Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamonds

 

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Voynich Manuscript

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Dou-Glass…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Dou-Glass…

Thursday, May 26, 2011

George III?????????

http://www.freemaninstitute.com/Gallery/Egyp140_big_copy.jpg

My neighbor looks like this bust…

http://www.freemaninstitute.com/Gallery/Egyp186_big_copy.jpg

Antique jewelry Victorian gold double serpent ring snake ring set with old mine cut diamonds

Antique jewelry Victorian gold double serpent ring snake ring set with old mine cut diamonds

cleoptra

Antique jewelry Victorian tourbillon engagement ring with big brilliant old mine cut diamond

Antique jewelry Victorian tourbillon engagement ring with big brilliant old mine cut diamond

Antique jewelry Emotional memorial Georgian hair ring

Antique jewelry Emotional memorial Georgian hair ring

Stonehenge…?

Antique jewelry Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamonds

Antique jewelry 17th century gold and diamond cross (ca.1650)

Antique jewelry 17th century gold and diamond cross (ca.1650)

Vintage 19th Century Moser Art Glass Enameled Box from the-vault on Ruby Lane

 Vintage 19th Century Moser Art Glass Enameled Box from the-vault on Ruby Lane

I know where this came from…

I went to Jamestown in Virginia and witnessed glassblowers making vases, etc….

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Orrefors History ~ Sephora????????

Orrefors History ~ Sephora????????

Orrefors History

Petrified glass??????????????

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I watched Little House on the Prairie frequently…

Carl Ludvig Engel - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Paula ~ Lapua - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Lapua - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This is what threw me off on the Sibyls…

…thinking Blake was the Erythraean Sibyl…  maybe

NGA - Gerrit Dou, The Hermit

Douglas (some of my relatives) ~ Dou Glass I came up with

Empress Dou (Zhang) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Paula Glasser met her in military.

Glass from Egytian…????

Cai Lun ~ Story of O…? UPDATED

I just spent two hours talking with a friend who works at GNC about hemp.  I couldn’t connect with it until I got home and started a search on hemp and found this. 

I had the image of the opium house in my mind…

A young Cai Lun, maybe…

Copy of KayFreshman sally stone 2

The ring on my left finger is a tiger’s eye…

This is the person…updated 5

Cai Lun - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

update - I was going to use the name as a pseudonym.   I did not take a paper making class.  I saw Romeo and Juliet when I was a freshman in college along with two other classmates.   One of them went into the fabric making business.   I was also going to start my own card company and use the name Bar-Kay for part of my roommates first name and my first name.  Bar ~ Arab, Kay ~ Cai? 

Barbara ~ arab, rab ~ rob…

I was spelling my name that way Cai ~ Kay, he is the eunuch, I thought the eunuch was Greek…One of the ECU professors had it…I did not get a chance to get into it to find out any formulas.  I had a roommate who worked for Weyerhauser in PItt County, they may possess some knowledge.

E How has a process for making hemp paper at home, must be it.  I expect someone at ECU figured it out.

A rolling pin with blades or tightly aligned spikes…I think the hemp was ground into a powder…chopped with an herb knife maybe, then ground with a mortar and pestle into a powder…then rolled out…

I did have a Jade ring and have been attracted to the stone…

Sophia Vinogradov – saw this last night…

This sketch looks like Elizabeth Smart’s abducter…

McCanns release image of 'Maddie kidnapper' - World - smh.com.au

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Incoming…

“This woman is dangerous to us”. 

“She’s violent”…

Wrong.  You are a danger to me, to my existence, to my freedoms my mental health and my ability to earn a living, and your accusations that I am dangerous threaten my right to defend my own life from invasions of privacy, freedom of speech and right to protect my brain from being manipulated.  Those threats cause norepinephrine to be released in my brain that is to protect my existence.

I have asked you to stop yet you persist.

You are using the brains of innocent people who get caught up in this machine to feed your industry. 

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Who dis…?

Just got a piece of glass in my mouth…  Broke a wine glass at the stem, few days ago.

Monday, May 23, 2011

I didn’t know anything about skis so I looked them up on the internet…updated

…and discovered that screws were used to adjust their release I think it is…then I really knew something was amiss.   I was never sure why I placed the cross on that shelf which I still have until I learned about the skis.  Then I was really flipping out.   I had not seen the Hitchcock film myself but my mother may have seen it, why I developed the paranoia about being possessed.  Of course lots of teenagers viewed those kinds of films also. 

I had sort of gotten over that paranoia until this started happening and the consciousness of it still eludes me.  I had read about synchronicity but was not focused on that at the time of these findings, which I seem to be acting out rather than using some logical deduction although there was the use of some logic in associating the events.  I didn’t think it was possible until I started making connections to California and I still have thoughts that it is too impossible yet the more I delve into it the more it is confirmed.

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Screws…

Getting lifted by all of the traffic sort of disconnected me from some of it but then might have also been responsible for getting me into it, which I think started in 2000.

Something interesting about the lightning strike that went through the big window in Chesapeake…

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After leaving Chesapeake and moving to Hyde County, one evening my father and I were in the kitchen and my mother was washing dishes when a bad storm came up.   My father was sitting next to the kitchen window and I on the other side of the table.   Suddenly I saw a huge flash of lightning in the window, it lit up the entire kitchen for a second or two.   Later we went outside and the weeping willow had been struck by the lightning, the biggest limb had been split off…