Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Getting hit in the chest – fighting with Keith…

…it was a fight between Liston McKinney and Cassius Gibbs over a girl.  It happened again with Bobby Penn and Billy Carver, I was the girl this time.

I think McKinney was really one of the Gibbses.   

I think this is another…have not seen it…

Lock Up Your Daughters - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Someone must be a real Plummer fan.   I do think he is a fine actor and have seen many of his films.  I had no idea the man had been in so many films and he still looks like a 50 year old.  I hope I look that good after all the films I’ve seen.

I think someone has seen this…

The Silent Partner (1978 film) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…I purchased a music CD containing a song title Silent Partner.  I particularly liked this song and listened to it frequently.   I have not seen the film.

Ladies in the mall were sitting and knitting this evening…

Sweet Spot Bakery Sit and Knit... - SkyDrive

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

I‘ve connected Camelot Inn in Greenville to Camelot Village in Chapel Hill, NC…

At the train station in Massachusetts…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: He showed up at the mall at about 6:15 PM just as I was waiting for the bus to go to Carrboro…

…the one I put on my blog several months ago, can’t find it now…

397 Mass 38, Wilmington, MA

He showed up at the mall at about 6:15 PM just as I was waiting for the bus to go to Carrboro…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: This is the car I was talking about…never seen this picture nor these episodes before last night…

…walked into Dillard’s then I got on the bus at 6:25 PM.  I arrived back at the stop where I get off at about 7:15 PM.  As I was about to round the corner he came across the intersection in his car heading west for Shepherd Lane on Willow.   I stopped and turned around and headed toward the mall where I stayed until 9:00 PM.

He looks like Becker…

Had a weird dream last night…

I was being chased by a helicopter with guns (Dreamcatcher).   I was trying to get away from the copter and headed into the woods.   Then there was snow or white sand on the ground.   I came up to what looked like a river that was divided by something like a sandbar but it was very white like snow or ice on the ground.   I did not feel particularly cold.   I kept going until I ran up on a group of people talking.   When I looked to the right I noticed a chain-link fence, like a cage high off the ground.   I don’t know where I was I don’t recall anything like this here or where I’ve been.  I ducked down…

dream image 02-28-12

This is the car – it was a two door sedan, pink…

…this is the one we had when my father nearly hit the telephone pole…

I had a 1985 Toyota Corolla FX in 1991, my Aunt purchased a Buick Park Avenue a few years later…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: This is the car I was talking about…never seen this picture nor these episodes before last night…

The man is hispanic…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: This is the car I was talking about…never seen this picture nor these episodes before last night…

I was looking for the pink Dodge my parents had in the 60’s that looked like a batmobile…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: This is the car I was talking about…never seen this picture nor these episodes before last night…

…of course I did read Batman comics during that time too!

This is the car I was talking about…never seen this picture nor these episodes before last night…

…he has been driving through Camelot to the mall spewing smoke from the back of his vehicle all the way.  I’m surprised he has been ticketed.  I have been bothered by this vehicle spewing this poison out all over the place while I am walking to the mall and back.  He seems to run into me frequently.

He is an Hispanic about 5 feet tall, dark hair, dark circles around the eyes, long nose, greyish brown complexion, wears flannel shirts frequently, goes to the mall and just sits at a table for several hours then leaves.  I don’t know if he is married to one of the house keepers or not but I have seen him with no one nor talking to anyone.  I have spoken to him in passing with just a nod.  No words have passed.  He is always alone in the car.   I stopped going to the mall several months ago.  Last night I passed him on his way from the mall again.   When I got to the mall there was a cloud of smoke lingering in the air and of course the fumes were horrendous and they are damaging.   I saw several people walking out as I passed to get to my destination.  He was with no one.

 http://cars.oodle.com/view/1985-buick-park-avenue-grey/2840796700-scottsville-ky/

scene from Rizzoli 1-2-9 scene from rizzoli 2-4-9

Boston Strangler ~ Dr. Thomas Neil Cream…???

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: See this, you know…

See image at bottom of page.

http://ponzermanning.webs.com/apps/photos/photo?photoid=118572592

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thomas_Neill_Cream

After seeing this and reading Jung I was also able to relate the current problem I am having at this time…

This is a good series, really good acting. | Kay's Film Analysis

…and a propensity for overeating which as I see now is part of the unconscious, I acted out throughout my life.   In 1988 I realized I was suffering from a degree of bulimia, going through periods of overeating and then starving which had been aggravated by my enlistment in the military where eating was essential for at least 6 weeks.

Monday, February 27, 2012

Marta Jane ~ Warta ~ Jane Grey…

Warta - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Pomieock…

Kociewie - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Pomieock Indians ~ Pom ~ ieock ~ kocie (polish for cobblestones)…

One theory (among many) is that "Prisoner of Millbank" is where the word "pom" derives from.

A photograph of Millbank Prison | Tradescant Road and South Lambeth

Marta Jane…

See this, you know…

Samuel Lafayette Squyars married to Emily Martin son of William Asa Squyars and Rebecca Annie Harris - Manning/Dunn Hyde County NC Genealogy

Looks a bit like Sam Woods’ crowd…Long Beards ~ Langobards ~ Lombards…

Have not seen this at all…

The Liver Birds - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…have seen a few episodes of Have You Been Served.

Mollie Sugden - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Mollie Sugden - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Squires ~ Squyars ~ Ray Suggs – met him in 1973…

Gower ~ Gouwe…

Suggs (singer) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I made a discovery back several months on this blog, in which I had re-enacted something in the 1970’s…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Rizzoli and Isles ~ Elizor ~ Rizole ~ Rozeli – Silverthorn…

…that led me to a place in the 80’s in another town and I realized the date was 1680, not 1980.  This can also be the same with names.  If a person is intoxicated, drugged up or has some brain dysfunction, then it is possible letters in names can be mixed up.   I have also discovered some species have a problem with having both eyes wired to only one side of the brain.   This can cause names to appear to be written in reverse of the normal order.  That’s why I have been doing this with the names.

This may be Richard L. Gibbs’ ancestors whose wife is Cherokee Indian…

6-Christopher Columbus "Dick" Gibbs (26 Sept 1861-31 October 1935)

Gibbs - Manning/Dunn Hyde County NC Genealogy

I think this woman was connected to my grandmother Eunice Blake…

+Eunice Rose (-)

Gibbs - Manning/Dunn Hyde County NC Genealogy

…may be connected to Fred Rose.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Adams - Manning/Dunn Hyde County NC Genealogy

+Dorothy Paige Holt (-)
. . . . 5-Pamela Holt Dunbar (-)
. . . . 5-Brian Holt Dunbar (-)

Adams - Manning/Dunn Hyde County NC Genealogy

Gibbs – Adams connexion…

Does this connect the Ghibbelines to Durer?????????????

Gibbs Adams connection

James Kelly Voliva ~ Avilov…

James Kelly

Rizzoli and Isles – Foster?…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Rizzoli and Isles ~ Elizor ~ Rizole ~ Rozeli – Silverthorn…

See this connects Susan Dimmock to some of the Vesalius and what has been happening in the show.

Foster Jarvis

Morgan Marion Gibbs ~ JP Morgan ~ Justin Morgan…

huron gibbs

marion weaver

Rizzoli and Isles ~ Elizor ~ Rizole ~ Rozeli – Silverthorn…

I see some Vesalius in this show…

This Silverthorn may link Susan Dimmock to Vesalius…?

rizzoli silverthorne

There is a McGowan – Cahoon connection…

My Uncle Robert walked with a limp, one leg was shorter than the other.  He looks like Sequoyah in the face a bit.  He had heavy eyebrows prominent nose, tall, robust man…

Jane Grey was a Greek Sibyl – W. Blake had it…

Detective Crowe looks like Rothschild…

detective in Rizzoli and Isles

Black Beauty by Christianna Sewell might be about a Native American, Cherokee…

Christianna (grandma Chris, had dark skin, not black but pecan or light brown in color), I have seen her photo-portrait.  

Sequoyah ~ Silverthorne ~ silver thorne, N. E. Roth Silver ~ Rothschild…

Nathan Mayer Rothschild - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Saturday, February 25, 2012

And I’m going to tell you what else I know – THERE WAS NO SEEING EYE DOG ASSOCIATION FOR THE BLIND…

HOLLYWOOD AND THOSE JEWS WHO COERCED HER INTO GOING TO HOLLYWOOD IN THE FIRST PLACE GOT THAT MONEY.

Wearing the bandanna and fishing on the bay with Alex…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Hertz ~ Bernabo…

…this is when I drank the white zombie…likely the film – we all were drinking mixed drinks…In 1973 I was with a group and we drank Tequila – Castenada?  Was this when Patricia got into it?   Then I went to see the Beatles and David Bowie so someone had done this before me, who?

I have had a particular liking for Indian drumming…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: I’ve been fishing on the Eno River with a guitar player…

…I have had visions of lying in a field or something like it, hearing it in the distance…was this when I rolled around in the wheat field – Catcher in the Rye…?  I am not particularly frightened by it…

Something from Daniel Boone episodes…?

What? “I’ve been teaching you three to look after yourselves”…

…who is telling this lie?

My brother has been living in the woods in Georgia half the time and the other half living on a damned boat.  You call that teaching someone to look after themselves?

Helen you are the biggest damned liar I have ever met.   You have been deceiving us all, along with a lot of other people.  YOU WERE JUST SO DAMNED SURE VICTORIA AND EDWARD WERE THE CULPRITS IN THE JACK THE RIPPER SCENARIO BUT I SEE YOU HAVE TRULY REVEALED SOMETHING OF YOUR OWN FAMILY.

I lived on the streets for 5 years, 5 hard years running from place to place.   Living in my car, hardly eating a damned thing.  Somebody’d better back the hell up and come again on that line of crap.

Edward VII ~ Bernabo…

bernabo head

My dream about being chased by snakes with no heads…

I never documented that until the late 80’s but I never forgot it and I think I acted it out in my youth in the woods with my cousin and other kids…

dream 5-25-2000

I think this is what the Ghibbelline really look like…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Hertz ~ Bernabo…

…maybe Bernabo wore the dragon in an attempt to separate the Ghibbelline from the Visconti family…this means a Ghibbelline was on top.

Nathaniel Gibbs was recorded to have had 21 children, by various wives, all to whom he was married…

…he came to America in 1650…

Children

Bernabò and his wife, Beatrice

Bernabò was an ally of Stephen II, Duke of Bavaria: three of his daughters were married with Stephen's descendants. He had 17 legitimate children with his wife:

Bernabò Visconti - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Bernabo painting…

Ritratto di Bernabò Visconti, Caironi Agostino – Opere e oggetti d'arte – Lombardia Beni Culturali

I never really noticed or paid much attention to the dragon on Bernabo’s chest of this statue…

…I was more focused on his bandanna and how it might have related to my experiences with Alexandra…

bernabo chest  Copy (2) of ripper mark...

Maybe…

…my dream of being chased by snakes had something to do with Bernabo Visconti ~ sign of the Dragon…

…maybe when the Cherokee were describing the Enneh River or a snake, scribing an “S” in the soil, this triggered a paranoia…

I have not been particularly fond of water but overcame it as I grew up.   When I went fishing on the Eno, we got into the water and crossed to a huge rock in the middle of it.  

Hertz ~ Bernabo…

Nehbandan ~ No bandanna…

Nehbandan - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Dakota ~ Lakota ~ Atokad ~ Atokal…

Arsanilic acid - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Atoxyl ~ Lyxota ~ Lakota ~ xylitol

Ly ~ Da

X ~ K

eh – O

All speculation…

I’ve been fishing on the Eno River with a guitar player…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Henne ~ Enneh ~ Eno?…

One day it struck me I might not even be a Gibbs under all the baggage…

…it was quite unsettling.

Henne ~ Enneh ~ Eno?…

Eno chal?

Eno River…

Pantee Street – this was in a dream I had…

Santee dialects of the Lakota Sioux language.

Dakota (given name) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Sequoyah ~ Hayouqes ~ Segouyah? ~ Hayouges ~ Hennegouwe…

Gouwe ~ Qouwe ~ Quowe ~ Qouwe ~ Gowa ~ Gowe ~ Gowan…

Chad ~ dahc ~ dach ~ dak ~ dakota…

Hennegouwen ~ McGowan ~ Chad Henne ~ Chad Cahoon (my cousin)…updated

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Was this an American Indian connected to Durer when he painted the volcanic eruption?

…they lived across the street from our family in the early 70’s…

Lyell Fork, Ansel Adams                               Durer’s Pond

Mt. Ansel Adams, Lyell Fork by Ansel Adams

I AM IN CONTROL OVER HERE, NOT TO WORRY…

I CAN SEE CLEARLY   :)  …

Angie Harmon looks a bit like Francis Thompson,

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: This picture of Thompson strikes me as looking a bit like Abberline and Christopher Marlowe…

…her left side…

I have encountered several Phillips in my past, Phil Smith in the 80’s…

Mabuse took service with Philip of Burgundy, bastard of Philip the Good,

Jan Mabuse - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Was this an American Indian connected to Durer when he painted the volcanic eruption?

Hennegouwe

Jan Mabuse - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Friday, February 24, 2012

I think this might be part of my childhood…

Joshua Slocum - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…most everything else I have experienced was put into it…I really like the song Orinoco Flow, Enya…

Slocum, a small area outside Engelhard, NC was always called Slocum as long as I lived there.  

Civil War - I think Engelhard came to have a movie theater because of the first one in Pennsylvania, it is a small town and hardly was profitable. 

Seen this sometime ago…

Roe vs. Wade (TV 1989) - IMDb

Incoming…

“Now let’s look at Gosford Park, hmmmm?”

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Boy do I recognize scenes in this film…

 

Nothing there, is this nothing?

…oh you’re right, there’s nothing there because it’s been acted out already…DUH!

green coat

I got scalded yesterday getting a cup of coffee at SS…

…I heard, “watch this”, and I proceeded to squirt some milk into the coffee and it sputtered into the cup and splashed all over my left hand scalding me.   It had happened before to someone else, it was the first time happened to me.  The coffee must have just been brewed.

This was one of the magazines my mother read…

True Story (magazine) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

True Crime was another.  She only red a few of them.   It was not a weekly thing.  She switched over to romance novels.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

The Naked Truth…

…this may have been the parking deck problem…I don’t recall seeing this film, I have seen How to Murder Your Wife I think, not 100% sure…

Could be this film – have not seen it…

The Naked Truth (1957 film) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This could be what was going on at the Paddock…

The investigation of mystical experience was constant throughout the life of James, leading him to experiment with chloral hydrate (1870), amyl nitrite (1875), nitrous oxide (1882), and even peyote (1896).

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: I connected Gibbs, Hertz, Poe and Helmholtz…

This is the source of my blackout in 1975 in the US Army I think…

On June 22, 1918, four people were arrested and over one hundred waiters taken into custody over the apparent widespread practice of poisoning by waiters in Chicago. Guests who tipped poorly were given "Mickey Finn powder" in their food or drinks.[8][9][10][11][12][13][14] Chemical analysis showed that it contained antimony and potassium tartrate.[10] Antimony is known to cause headaches, dizziness, depression, and vomiting and can be lethal in large quantities. W. Stuart Wood and his wife were arrested for manufacturing the powder, and two bartenders were arrested for selling the powder at the bar at the waiters' union headquarters. Wood sold packets of the powder for 20 cents [15] and referred to it as "Mickey Finn Powder" in a letter to union bartender John Millian.[16] A followup article mentions the pursuit of a man named Jean Crones who was believed to be responsible for poisoning over 100 people at a Chicago University Club banquet at which three people died.[17][18]

Mickey Finn (drugs) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This rings true with my experiences…someone must have read about it in the newspaper or heard it on the radio…

I connected Gibbs, Hertz, Poe and Helmholtz…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Was it because Jung failed in helping the woman who was frightened of her visions of a scarab beetle…

…then I discovered William James and Leonora Piper…I had just seen the Outer Limits Film..

Some of James experiences rang true although I never did Peyote…I have used amyl nitrate better known as poppers in the gay lesbian world…

The investigation of mystical experience was constant throughout the life of James, leading him to experiment with chloral hydrate (1870), amyl nitrite (1875), nitrous oxide (1882), and even peyote (1896).

Hertz ~ Zethr, he did not look Jewish to me.  

This is the one both my Aunt’s had…

Antique sewing machine table with drawers & cast iron base: Architectural Salvage Online Store, Buy Altered Antiques | OGTstore.com

This American Beauty is what my mother had, it was not as updated as this one, but the best working machine around.  Same color.   I made my clothes for Home Ec on this machine.  I made my first pair of bell bottom slacks on this machine.

Here’s the crowd…

First Broadcast: 2000
Producer: Eric Cain
Videographer/Editor: Greg Bond
Additional Editing: John Patzer
Additional Editing: Brett Wood
Additional Editing: Tom Shrider

Oregon Art Beat — Quilter Mary Catherine Lamb · Oregon Public Broadcasting

Both my Aunts and Maternal Grandmother quilted.  My Aunt Mamie made an art of it.   They would collect fabrics all through the year and stitch them together in large squares. Before it got cold they would hang a rack from the ceiling.   Then they would stretch the bottom fabric across the rack lacing it around the edges.  Then they would layer cotton batting on top and then stitch the squares onto the top of all of it.   It was quite an ordeal.   Sometimes they would do quilt making at my grandmother’s.   They’d sip coffee or iced tea, dip snuff, and enjoy their quilt making. 

This man looks like CW…

James Bradley Thayer - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

James Brady Thayer

Was it because Jung failed in helping the woman who was frightened of her visions of a scarab beetle…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Why do we have dykes, butches, lesbians – The Second Coming of Suzanne…

…her spiritual insight which she transferred to Jung upon her telling of the incident?  He failed not by finding the scarab and showing it to her as a harmless beetle, he fail to allow the woman to connect with her own abilities allowing her to find the beetle on her own, thus overcoming her real fear and gain confidence in her ability to trust her own instincts.

Zethr ~ Set – Seth…?

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: I’ve been seeing this – Necho II ~ Enoch – Zethr was killed not Enoch…

I think she is the subject of The Outer Limits, episode The Form of Things Unknown…

Leonora Piper - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

…and it seems they intended conveying a message to the public about the possibility of mind control and is portrayed here as a victim as is likely the case in the experiments conducted by James, et al, whereas they did something which brought about her potential.  This I know and understand as an enmeshment of the human psyche.

What about evolution of the mind – I wrote it on the black board in the bathroom at Columbia Street Bakery, Chapel Hill…

Chauncey Wright - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I’ve been seeing this – Necho II ~ Enoch – Zethr was killed not Enoch…

Necho II - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My niece spoke like this for a short time…

shiny gold-filled teeth, and as he smiled he drew in his breath with a polite, soft sibilant sound.

Mr. Moto - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I met De Silva at the hospital…

Henry Silva - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

As I mentioned before, having seen an early image of Gibbs, I think he and Poe may have had a connection…

Edgar Allan Poe - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

and the Whites having been in publishing, this led to me have a short lived interest in Poe’s work.  Was it Thompson’s publisher?

The man who photographed the murder victims became a projectionist sometime later.   This of course spawned all kinds of interest in psychology and so forth, by those who would have been in the publisher’s circle of friends.

Have not seen…

Mr. Moto - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

He slept on a slab over a grave and he listened to music…

This picture of Thompson strikes me as looking a bit like Abberline and Christopher Marlowe…

…a very thin and sickly Marlowe…

I think I’ll use this in my ad project, what do you think?

Thompson and Vesalius…?

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: I created Ripper mark before playing this game online…

I think Thompson discovered the mark…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Francis Thompson ~ Thomas De Quincey…

Francis Thompson ~ Thomas De Quincey…

and trapped in poverty, empty with despair. He had even attempted suicide until what he believed to be a vision of another suicide-poet being pulled him back from the brink. Perhaps this was just another drug induced hallucination.

Francis Thompson

I am sure this is the derivation of some of my experiences.  I did buy and read some of Confessions of an English Opium Eater, 2004-2005 or so.

I created Ripper mark before playing this game online…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Symbols.com - Symbol 37:4

Alchemy game…

Maybe I was reenacting someone thinking they had sinned against mankind, Dang Me…

"It would be better for him if, with a heavy millstone hung around his neck, he had been cast into the sea." He is saying that being drowned in the sea with a millstone hung around his neck would be a better fate than that which could occur. What is being drowned with a millstone better than?

Matthew 13:40-42 (NASB) "Therefore just as the tares are gathered up and burned with fire, so shall it be at the end of the age. 41 "The Son of Man will send forth His angels, and they will gather out of His kingdom all stumbling blocks, and those who commit lawlessness, 42 and will cast them into the furnace of fire; in that place there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.

Don't Cause Your Brother to Stumble, Mark 9:38-50

You think I think we should all pick up the cross and march the streets?

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: I recognize this, never read it, reads similar to what I wrote recently…update 4

This is what people believe about being like Jesus.  He represented a concern for the well being of others, even the poorest.  A society with the darkness of Blade Runner is what I see for the future of some people, with the enemy shutting out the light-gouging out the eyes of mankind.  I experience it weekly, someone trying to alter my thinking, corrupting my mind to see things, their way, “she’s dangerous to us”, these kinds of statements used in hopes of causing me to succumb to their will, fitting me into their way of thinking about me and how they think things are.   What they think is coming from their brains not mine.  What they see is coming from their minds not mine.  We shutter to think of our society as having anything which exists like it but it is out there and at work on our lives daily.  Misery does love company and Satan wants to drag you into the depths of hell for his namesake, not your own.  He wants to cast his anger and frustration and resentment onto the innocent thinking he is redeeming himself in the process.  He only brings more sin into his house.

Sin was cast into the world, people failed to heed the commandments.  Some of us live in sin because we are victims of the sins of others, some of us simply don’t care about morality, sin, evil or society’s moral compass.  They are the ones who expect us to be objective for their purposes, for their profit.  If they are allowed to rule our lives we have no hope for our future, our society will fall into depravity, just as personal lives have already fallen into depravity. 

Having said that, I refute the accusations by many of the Psychiatrists I have talked with…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: I recognize this, never read it, reads similar to what I wrote recently…update 4

…claiming Kay Gibbs is anti-social.

Why do we have dykes, butches, lesbians – The Second Coming of Suzanne…

…why are women basically being forced to lop off their breasts, get penises and grow beards?

From Robert Johnson’s We, Understanding the Psychology of Romantic Love.

We note to women

Because that “consciousness” goes against all that Corporate America deems, our way of life when it is their way of life.   You either believe “resistance is futile” and you become one of them or you put up with, “I want you to kill this bitch, she is against our way of life”, denial of the soul and it’s wisdom, internalized by the developing female, “if I don’t play the game I will be left out, die, be killed, like my mother”, but I can’t be like my mother so I have to adapt a different way, oh, I’ll cut off my breasts and get a penis attached, get me a woman and become a part of the game…this kind of thinking does not just cause the female to often choose to become a man but it forces some men to become masochistic, more feminine in an attempt to save themselves spiritually.   This consciousness is shuttled off from one person to another, so that one can feel at ease, live amongst one’s peers, or even live with one’s self.

Why do so few people achieve mental health, a natural part of development, even when they attend mental health?  It is the job of mental health as a State and/or Corporate funded institution, to prevent you from this awareness, directing most of your difficulties to your parents or yourself, drugs and alcohol, rarely the true sources.

Then they have the unmitigated gall to stand before the American Public and deny these people they have forced into these lifestyles the legal right to marry and have children.   You cannot have it both ways and for that matter you truly cannot continue to abuse the lives of innocent people to suit “your way of life”, they are protected by the constitution, although psychological enslavement has not been specifically addressed in the 13th Amendment.

I helped start a Gay Alcoholic’s Anonymous group in the early 80’s.  I have commingled with men who were corporate executives, struggling with their identities, or rather, struggling with projections and or projective identification.  I was not as knowledgeable then as I am now, nor was I as conscious then as I am know about the sources of my own problems.  The struggles we were all going through encouraged me to learn more about psychology and why we were all having this struggle.  My quest for answers has been met with trepidation and disappointment.   I will never see the world as I once did nor do I desire to retreat to the safety of my past ignorance.

I dare to think of what would have happened to that little town in New York had it not been for Lois Gibbs, her conscientiousness and her drive to get the Love Canal cleaned up.

Never seen it, might be the derivation of my woman on the cross sketch…

The Second Coming of Suzanne (1974) – IMDb

Of course this is based on the original.

Woman on cross behind rock

IMDb - The Second Coming (1992)

IMDb - The Second Coming (1992)

Interesting, not seen it but makes me think a Gibeonite might actually have been possessed of it… 

Looks kind of like Tuzigoot…

File:Pos-2.jpg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I had some bizarre visions this AM…update

Whately came up in my dreams this AM.  I heard his name and something about reaching a peak or something to that effect. 

I saw a dog ramming his head into a wall, looked like a mobile home, likely because my neighbor with the St. Bernard moved into one in the country.   The dog had mange (a word in my crossword puzzle book recently) and was drooling all over the place, something a St. Bernard is known to do.   There is an employee at Radio Shack named Kojo whose name makes me think of the Stephen King film, Kujo or Cujo, the film about the rabid dog, I have seen likely because it was projected onto me as I have no propensity for horror films.   Kojo does not watch TV.   It also reminded me of Jaws when they showed the shark ramming the boat and the cage, an interesting symbolism since Dreyfus was in the cage. 

He does look a bit like Whately and Thatcher looked like him as well.

Updated:  I also saw someone driving a spike into someone’s hand amongst a mishmash of things.   I don’t know who might have seen this film.

I recognize this, never read it, reads similar to what I wrote recently…update 4

But any man of common sense readily perceives that the force of these parables consists in the circumstance that men do _not_ usually show this carelessness about temporal goods; and, therefore, are guilty of gross and culpable _inconsistency_, if they are comparatively careless about what is far more important.

Online Reader - Project Gutenberg

…the ideas are quite similar, but fails to prove I plagiarized his work.  I have never heard of nor read the work of Richard Whately.   Many people through maturation will likely draw similar conclusions about some individuals or society, given their circumstances are such that this kind of thinking will result.  Having said this, it is clear one’s life can be directed by the mind so as to recreate a similar outcome, or one’s life can be manipulated by deliberately inflicting suffering so one will disdain the things more profitable to one’s existence.  With our vast amount of knowledge to date, regarding human behavior, it would be quite easy to affect the outcome of another’s actions with devices such as media delivered to the masses through various electronic devices.   History may have come from the past, yet we do often find ourselves amidst it in the present.   It will persist, deftly depicted in Dali’s Persistence of Memory, until it is dealt with by the hand of jurisprudence or some catastrophic event forces man to look upon himself and his mind as the creator of his circumstances and that of society; it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven.   And so we cling to our biblical verses from the Bible in an effort to make ourselves feel better rather than putting an effort into forging a profitable economic existence.   Jesus did die on the cross and so with him died man’s love and concern for humanity.  Some directed their emotional energies and concerns to the death of Jesus often neglecting their own lives.   Those who love him, often loved what he did to himself, not what he tried to do for the poor and suffering and so it is with them that they will many times seek to put others on the cross.   This is the nature of what modern psychologists call projection, the forcing of others to submit to their heavenly higher minds while they pursue more earthly monetary rewards.   This earthly pursuit can become lustful, blinding us to the consequences of our wanton nature.  We need only look at the conditions of our environment to see the results of this lust.

Analysis:  What we have here is a battle between the anima and animus, male and female parts of the human psyche.   Many women likely struggle more with this spiritual-material discontent than men.   It is the woman who leaves home and goes to work who suffers more than the man who climbs the corporate ladder, yet, it is the spiritual nature of the woman which balances the home and so her place in politics and business can be quite useful.   Her absence leaves our society lopsided, leaning toward the propensity for evil.   How clear this was in Nazi Germany not so long ago. 

I purchased these tapes…updated

The Official site for Denis Waitley

They are just ok but the premise is effective I think.   I discovered the kind of help I need is far more intensive and will require more critical thinking than what most of these programs provide.

Which means they are not helping me.  As I have mentioned on my other blog, they are written so as to assist those into whom these ideas will eventually be projected.   This is done by using scare tactics, fear, anger and imagery.

I recognize this…

Death

From 1856 onwards symptoms of decline began to manifest themselves in a paralytic affection of the left side. Still he continued the active discharge of his public duties till the summer of 1863, when he was prostrated by an ulcer in the leg, and after several months of acute suffering he died on 8 October 1863.

Richard Whately - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Monday, February 20, 2012

Gertrude was the Hospital superintendent at my birth in 1954, Dr. Heyder evaluated me in 1996…

Gertrude, who married the painter, Henri van der Heyden.

CATHOLIC ENCYCLOPEDIA: Jan Gossaert

…synchronicity being what it is…

Dr. Heyder looks like the Antonis Mor painting of the unknown male subject…

Jan Gossaert – Hercules and Deianara

I am guessing this is what my people look like on the left.  It most resembles one of Katherine Gibbs’ photographs early in her film career…

This would have been painted just a little over 100 years before my family left England.  

Kay 1973, 1974, 2004…

I think 1974 might be  Cassini (a female Proboscis?) – King William, which Cher had early on in her career…

 Kay 1973 2 kay 1974 kay 2004

Kay’s sister 1973 and 2003 with her daughter…

…the Lyons were in Hyde County, NC in the later 60’s early 70’s.  I had an encounter with them in school they jacked me up…

Mary 1973 Copy of MARY AND KATHERINE AT KAYS

Island of Tranquility…?

Fortunatus Victor Costa - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Blue Corn…?????

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: I have seen this and it had a hole in it, I thought…update 3

Freud’s cigar?

the other as I see it now was like a tootsie roll candy bar which I ate occasionally…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: I have seen this and it had a hole in it, I thought…update 3

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: I have seen this and it had a hole in it, I thought it was a baseball bat…I drew it in my journal many years ago…

…13 October, 1990, I was in Cherry Hospital, drug overdose…dreaming about *&%, dreamt about two different kinds of bats, the second picture is one of them the other as I see it now was like a tootsie roll candy bar which I ate occasionally…

My mother had taken an overdose when I was about 10 years old – her grandmother (Elvira Jones) was likely mixed up with some mentally ill people as she was said to be mentally ill (Ernest Jones ~ Ernest Palmer Swindell, her mother’s second husband), my Uncle Richard Ray Weston inherited the baggage…

3722 bat with hole

Bolero is playing or was played…

Symbolism and the collective unconscious…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Canaanite – Shin ~ S – sin ~

Carl Jung and Eric Fromm, Sane Society…

Jung Man and His Symbols

This reminded me when I climbed into the dressor and it fell over on top of me…

PJ the horse…

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: This is something like it too, a gothic Z…updated

Equus?

P2190001

The room I rented in 1994 also had a radiator.  Was the paranoia really from a man?

Cabinet in the far right of second painting apothecary’s cabinet…?

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Dali’s The Weaning of Furniture Nutrition…

Alcohol was used to dilute various herbs to create tinctures.

Dali’s The Weaning of Furniture Nutrition…

This is what the cabinet looked like in Diana’s house where I was staying at the time.   Paranoid to be alone, I lit a candle and turned on the TV.   I tried to quiet myself.  The entrance to my bedroom faced this cabinet.   I never bothered it or knew what was in it.   As I left the bedroom to go into the kitchen the candle went out and the door to the cabinet opened in front of me.  There sat a half gallon of Vodka.  I was so frightened I got into the car and left.   I returned home to discover I locked myself out of the house and Diane had gone for the weekend.   I called Charles.

Palladio's Corridor of Dramatic Surprise - Salvador Dali

Mary Jane or one of the other women visited the apothecary…updated

What's In Kay's Mind - Connecting The Dots: Symbols.com - Symbol 37:4

Is this how I came to recognize tuzigoot as looking like the operating theater and possibly the lower deck of a ship, maybe the Ark…

P ~ opposite - sin…?

Salvador Dali in the Act of Painting Gala in the Apotheosis of the Dollar, 1965, Salvador Dali oil paintings on ArtSunLight

Twisted crutches…

Salvador Dali's oil painting Salvador Dali in the Act of Painting Gala in the Apotheosis of the Dollar, 1965

Shakespeare murdered????

Raining men…?

UK germany russia

Symbols.com - Symbol 14:1

In propositional logic, 1401a P means that the opposite of P is true.

Symbols.com - Symbol 14:1

Sin – jail…

Film about men imprisoned by Japanese kept in cages in water…

symbols for jail

Canaanite – Shin ~ S – sin ~

File:Phoenician samekh.svg - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shin_(letter)

Arabic – Sin…

Copy of greek letters

Canaanite sin…File:Phoenician samekh.svg

dowser alternate bamboo connection