…because of the baggage they wear to keep them upright.
Why other species are being murdered, so they can live and stay upright.
Just leave me out of your mission games.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
We need a moratorium…
on books, TV and films until we clean this mess up.
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?
I know corps won’t want to hear that but it’s a mess in here…
Afternoon tea party in front of the hut…updated
…outdoor party at King Paul’s hut where I was living at the time with Candy…1975
All The Year Round, Charles Dickens, page 151.
tea had been turned into beer, wine and liquor…there was another outdoor party on the Ridge Road, Galliano and Harvey Walbangers…
Now it’s going back to tea and water…fountain drinks and soft drinks…
I think somewhere in here is where the Seafood Festival sprang up…
Incoming…
“Better watch it Mironoff”.
“Shut it”. “I’ve got this girl eating out of the palm of my hand”.
Mosquito Coast?????
Thursday, April 28, 2011
The Hidden Room (1949) - IMDb user reviews
The Hidden Room (1949) - IMDb user reviews
I like Obsession perfume…
Dark Water, what is down there?
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?
One might tend to want to see what is beneath the water…
Why this happened…
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Movies I think contributed to my alcoholism…
When I viewed these films, some of them, I was watching what the characters were doing, as most children do when they watch their parents. A more mature person would view it differently. They might be more inclined to listening to what is said rather than what is going on, this is all a matter of development.
Movies I think contributed to my alcoholism…
Days of Wine and Roses and Rita Hayworth Story, Smash-Up, and god knows how many westerns…Annie Get Your Gun…
This is not about putting a guilt trip on anyone. It’s about MY BRAIN.
This doesn’t take a genius to figure out…update 6
Why Doctors Should Be More Empathetic--But Not Too Much More: Scientific American
What do they see? They see all of that disease they learned about in 8 years of medical school and $$$$$$$$$$. Writers look at us and see a story, though their object seeking is a little less harmful unless they are hacking your brain, then they get into trying to get you to pour all kinds of chemicals into your brain that excite your neurons and elevate your thinking capacity, a foolish means of trying to help someone.
It’s all a higher level of cannibalism, there is a body but you see a meal, one sees an advantage, one sees whatever fits into their goals, wants and desires. These goals are not always evident, they are suppressed thoughts such as elegant nights on a big yacht in the Mediterranean. One might see a person with a beautiful nose, beautiful hair, beautiful big eyes or a big head and seek to get them, lifting, jacking up and all kinds of trickery are evoked. These are all infantile processes, stages we go through as we mature into, hopefully, more socially mature adults. That is soon forgotten when one needs to put food on the table.
What do I see? I see movies and stars often when I look at people, waiting for the climax and resolution to the movie. I see products. I have spent hours at the supermarket gazing at products on the shelf. I should have Harris Teeter’s shelves memorized.
Every time I cross the street on my way to the Mall there is a movie that is triggered in the back of my mind, like someone walking to death row, Madam X maybe. It used to be freedom from the four walls of my apartment. Leaving the mall and walking home across the street might evoke memories of Barbra Streisand’s Nuts, walking to freedom now. It’s things like this that are going on in my mind. Attempts I have made to alter this thinking by attending college and forcing my neurons to think of something different have been thwarted. I feel as if I have been hostage, prisoner. It is frustrating and infuriating when I am attacked by those who would seek to profit from my mind.
It all makes me feel like Draper in Nuts when she’s making her first court appearance and she passes by all those men pawing at her through the cell bars. The symbolism makes one think Draper is untouchable, they are grabbing at her but they never touch her. Isn’t this like some Doctors?
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
You can…
…alter the soul of a new born so that it is different from its genetic make-up. I think this affects natural attraction.
Incoming…
“I’ve been working my tail off”.
IS YOUR BRAIN IN MY APARTMENT? NOT HARDLY. I REST MY CASE.
The only reason you got me to move in here is…
…so your children wouldn’t have to pay for it themselves, you know it’s the truth. Taking advantage of disabled and desperate people. I pity you and hell deserves better. Dump your trash somewhere else.
Incoming…
“This girl won’t laugh it off”.
What an idiot. Why don’t we throw your life down the toilet and then tell you to laugh it off, hahahaha >:(
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
What an ass, I wonder why?
“Give them a place to live and an endless supply of food and they will look at the television all day long”. “They don’t pay attention to what’s going on around them”.
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Incoming…
Stupid. Now we have to spend our time paying attention to what’s going on in our brains and minds to keep from getting into trouble. I am a testament to that fact.
You people have played your games with my brain for the last time. You kept the truth from us so you could sell us a bunch of lies.
I HAVE HAD ENOUGH. STOP. LEAVE MY MIND AND BRAIN ALONE.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Women's Prison (1955) - IMDb
Killing a child with the car…I walked out into the street in front of a car, 1955…
“she writes bad checks”…
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Correction – I made the necklace in 1995…
There was no cross.
This was after I ran into the man who called himself Ahmad in Greenville, NC in 1993…
I went into the store looking for Fava Beans, then decided not to get them and bought a beverage and left. He tried to get me to buy a pack of cigarettes.
Nova Spy Factory, what I recognize…update 4
Al Qaeda Headquarters ~ AlQa – EDA?
I had just gotten this camera off layaway…bought it at Walmart, I was deterred from getting a digital by the woman who was working there. Her husband was operating the Portrait Studio there and he took my picture…they left shortly after that, they were there when I had my first roll of film developed…
E- Sharp
I made a necklace out of beads like these with leather string, intended giving it to my mother…2000 or so I gave them to my niece instead…
Saturday, April 23, 2011
I am still having sleep problems…
“I didn’t sleep at all last night”…
MAYBE THIS IS PART OF THE PROBLEM!
Friday, April 22, 2011
Dream vision this AM…
There was someone in an old house and there was another house not far away. I was stepping up on a stone step to get into the house. Someone said to watch out for snakes. There was something eerie about it. I could look out and see someone in the other house…
The shortest distance between two points is a straight line…
I think there was a psychic connection between Joseph Sprague Gibbs and Kathleen Clinton.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
More erroneous information…
Adenosine triphosphate - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
This article contradicts itself.
Filtering out extraneous information…
The Unleashed Mind: Why Creative People Are Eccentric: Scientific American
I once thought the brain did this. Now, after pulling together all of the information I have read from various sources, it is impossible for the brain to filter out anything unless it is programmed to do so, just as we have been programmed to permit our brains to be deceived. The brain, as Ramtha spoke in What The Bleep Do We Know, “is like the lens of a camera, it has no feelings or objections to what it is seeing”. It is only after the observation has occurred is a feeling evoked. One might choose to watch a gory film only because one has never seen it before and has no concept of what might be in a gory film. After seeing it one might choose to never see one again. This is why the Baggage Buster works so well, it trains the brain to reject undesirable baggage. The brain and mind might work in the same way if it is subjected to something it is not familiar, like a horror film.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
I think maybe Alex’s parents or brothers may have seen this film…update 3
…and she was dissociating it and I, in an acting out way was trying to give it back to her. It could also be that Katherine had seen this film or some of my relatives or parents of acquaintances. None the less there was that battle going on between us with the baggage….Alex was dating this guy at the time who I thought she shouldn’t have been involved with, he used drugs, just like in the film The Devil’s Bat, and really who was i to say who she should go with. It’s possible this was shown in the theater in Hyde County.
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Re: The Devil’s Bat and other films…updated
Re: The Devil’s Bat and other films…updated
Incoming: “it’s not in there”.
As I clearly stated Mirinoff, it’s not in there because I have been acting this crap out.
The Devil’s Bat – 1977 – Dickinson Ave living with Alex, throwing the scissors, it was a duplex with stairs, she was heading down the stairs…it seems likely someone thought the Doctor threw the scissors…or that he went down the stairs with the scissors and stabbed his wife after giving Nina the sedative…
Incoming…
“Give them a place to live and an endless supply of food and they will look at the television all day long”. “They don’t pay attention to what’s going on around them”.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
My Aunt told me she and my father ran over a pig after he had come home from the war…
…this film was made before he got home to Hyde County, NC.
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Hulu - Dark Waters - Watch the full movie now.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Hazelwood drive in Raleigh, NC - updated
I think this is what I was seeing below when I took photos of the trees and vines here in NC, 2003…I also took lots of photos during the time I lived on Hazelwood…some shots of the snow we had in 1981-82…I smoked Cambridge cigarettes during that time…this house looks very much like the house I lived in on Hazelwood Drive, when I was working at Corning Glass Works making the electronic capacitors…
My sister had an Octagon shaped window in her first house, so did her friend and there is an Octagon house in Hyde County…
Palo Alto…
Ash Street – Jacaranda Lane
Art Young Insurance
Hotel California
Bakery buying croissants
Sculpture at Mall…
Mery – Mure – M rue…M film or Inquiry in Chinese or Korean…thinking image is language…
Another – Madame or Malcolm X
Feng shui…
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Correction - California 82, Palo Alto, CA…updating
Someone’s doing nudie scenes in front of a web cam…
About 5 or 6 years ago I moved my bed into the living room of my apartment…
This is related to the scene I discovered…
in which someone was snorting cocaine claiming they were going to “clean up this town”.
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Cocaine…
This is when I first learned about Sonny Bono’s death.
Cocaine…updated
Incoming: “get you a big sniff of it”…heard this about 30 minutes ago.
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Correction - California 82, Palo Alto, CA…updating
Stored in a storage facility on Westminster.
I purchased two hot glue guns, while in and out of the motels…as best I can put together here from all that I have been going through…this was between 1991 and 1998…I purchased this box of detergent before I got the glue guns…This box was in my storage for at least 5 years, I was in the shelter at the time.
Correction - California 82, Palo Alto, CA…updating
…someone stayed in quite a few hotels on that strip…this is where the hotel hopping came from…
Eaten at Boston Market
Comfort Inn
Glass Slipper
PA Lodge – I think this is what got me confused with Pennsylvania although I have been there.
Nextel
Wahoo,
Jacuzzi
Fresh Taste Chinese
Olive Garden
Bicycle Shop
Spine Doctor – lower back
Town and County Village – purchased a T&C magazine
Westin
Wellesley Street – instead of college
Yale Street
This house I think, there was or is an issue with the tree to the left…and an issue with a dog…
College Avenue – Inno Design – Sikh Foundation
Molecular magnetism…
There are no magnets imprisoning one psyche to another, while someone would want one to believe this to be true. One can retrieve one’s mind at any time if one chooses and has the dimensional capacity to maneuver it or even cares to pay attention to it at all.
Jacking up, boosting or more appropriately termed enmeshing, one’s self with another, willfully or unintentionally, is at the root of what appears to be that which was coined in the Star Trek series as “changeling qualities”. Wilson Bryan Key, PhD states, “the mind creates the body”. That which we hold or repress in our minds, creates the body? Seeing our parents day in and day out for 18 years we tend to look like them and it is said that many married couples (the ones that are truly in love with each other) tend to start looking like each other. The brain does create the body. But what about all these different pictures I have below. None of them look the same and some of them are the result of someone viewing images of portraits or the portraits themselves, for example the Army 1975 photo looks like a portrait of Queen Isabella of Bavaria. I am partial to my own relations of which she is not. Other photos resemble people I have been associated with in my past, some relatives some not. This has led me to think that the human body can also be altered by enmeshments with other people, as surely as we get older we boost, lift, elevate or move into the upper chakras possessed by our parents. This molecular structure and the content that was created in it, without doubt, would also have a profound effect on our physical appearance and our physiology, mood and thinking. If one is prone to being around lots of people then one will surely begin to take on qualities of those people, however temporary that might be at times. This temporariness depends on the level of knowledge and skill another has acquired.
I have with ease at times, been able to retrieve parts of myself, sometimes consciously, sometimes unconsciously, “the lord giveth and taketh away”, I finally found out what that meant which also led me to think this deliberate enmeshing was the true meaning of “thou shalt not steal”. Maybe this was at the root of the discord between the Jews and Egyptians, while this enmeshment at times relieved various temporary physical problems.
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Saturday, April 16, 2011
The Leith murder happened while I was living in Beaufort County…
…prior to going to the psychiatric hospital.
Chuck Wade ~ Satterfield, college Art professor…
…I just recollected that Wade looks like Satterfield, one of the Art professors I had in 1973. I kept thinking Wade reminded me of someone I had seen but I just couldn’t put my finger on who it was until this evening.
He must have been down under, down stairs giving me a lift.
Now they are trying to get me to destroy my PC so I can’t publish…
anything about what they are doing.
Figures.
I think I will send this document to the Feds for verification.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Agamemnon ~ my father…update 3
The tragedies of Seneca - Google Books
Some decades ago after my father’s death I also read in Edith Hamilton’s Timeless Tales of God and Heroes and another Greek Mythology book about a woman who’s father or brother was blind and she was seeking to save her brother, I thought it was Iphigenia. I read Antigone as well.
It seems someone was either putting on Greek or Roman plays or was reading about them. I am connecting names of characters in the mythologies, “I like Phoebe”, Odysseus, Phaedra, Phosphor, Porsephine, Pindar, Romulus, Iris and Rainbow, Sparrow, Labyrinth, Frigga, Dove, Cassandra, Castor, Cadmus (Camus?), Circe’ (Jean Baird my roommate mentioned this frequently, I had never heard of Circe’ before, I was familiar with other Greek characters), Agave, Bacchus, Chaos, Avernus, Chiron, Charon, Bosphorus, Arion, Argos ( we had a school mate named Argie), Attica, Bootes…
I watched most of the Xena episodes that deal with mythology and quite a few Golden Girls which I think also contained many of the tragedies.
Dream Early AM yesterday…
Dreamt about Lindsay again. I was going to the hospital. Seemed like she was really here. She then had to go to the hospital…
Holly character…
New insight…
Leith murder – Aunt and Uncle mixed up with them after purchasing a new car. They were mixed up in my stuff from Chesapeake, I was mixed up in the neighbor’s stuff across the street who was molested by her grandfather, but then it all might be Calvin Hall’s patient and her father and she wanted to kill him, leading me to think that Leith’s sister masterminded the murders.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Katherine must have been mixed up with some movie goers in NY City…
…or my Aunt and Uncle in Richmond.
I have been hearing “idiot” for over a year…
I had posted months ago about the book, The Family Idiot by Flaubert, I wanted to read it after having read Sentimental Education, but never got around to it. I was looking for something to identify with…
This is another painting I have been viewing…
I love this and the Bouguereau.
http://i300.photobucket.com/albums/nn26/aerospace_2008/PAINTINGS/leight10.jpg
This is the print I was speaking of…
I have seen at the Print Shop…
Evening Mood by Bouguereau (Original) - wallpaper | luke mcreynolds
This is the image I saw in one of the films, last night…updated
…I previewed three and only watched Billion Dollar Brain where I thought these images came from…now I cannot find them.
It was a painting I was seeing and there were several of them…I have seen similar at the Print Shop but these were different styles and different figures.
I was mixed up in this film in 1975…
Billion Dollar Brain (1967) - IMDb
I was told, correction, I heard, “look at these films for me would you”, after visiting Hulu to see what I could locate that might be in the mind, and I discovered lots of the Hulu Plus films that looked familiar but I had never seen.
I had not seen this film before last night but recognized scenes early on that my roommate and I acted out while I was living with her. Could be her brother or some of my relatives or someone from some other place, certainly from another time.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
I think I have a connection to someone who was a psychiatrist…
The arrangement of my desk and other things in my living room are arranged almost like Dr. Heyder’s Office, 1996, he said I was schizophrenic.
Now I have moved my desk into the bedroom where I have a small a/c unit in the window like some of the professors or other employees at UNC.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Incoming…
“this woman’s doing her job”…
Excuse me?
As I stated, I am not employed, I am trying to dig my way out of the garbage that’s been heaved onto me. I work for no one.
I came up with Cai as a potential pseudonymn…
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Alexander Constantine Ionides…
Someone must have been viewing something of his collection or reading about it…one of the Art professors…
Alexander Constantine Ionides…
…he purchased something red and Japanese…
Alexander Constantine Ionides - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Monday, April 11, 2011
Calendar of Nuclear Accidents
Talk about CO2 emissions? Can the environment truly stand any more contamination? It is passed being insane to continue using nuclear energy to sustain our power needs.
I can’t help but notice this…
Ajinomoto is a Japanese manufacturer of amino acids. Tryptophan is one of their products. Tryptophan helps reduce obsessive compulsive behavior and other behaviors like impulse shopping, etc. Now it is possible Ajinomoto’s products might have been contaminated, which means no tryptophan unless you buy from US or don’t use it at all and opt for medication which will not work unless the diet contains significant amounts of tryptophan, which means consuming at least 100 grams of protein daily. Of course this is great for the protein manufacturers as long as their products are safe and even then you might not get the amounts necessary as tryptophan competes with other amino acids for entry into the brain.
It would be a sad day if this event were concocted and pushed onto us like some have proposed about 9/11 in an effort to stop the decline of the economy in hopes of getting people to spend their money, which tryptophan helps prevent, impulse shopping.
O SAY CAN YOU SEE
BY THE DAWNS EARLY LIGHT
WHAT SO PROUDLY WE HAILED
O SAY CAN YOU SEE…
Oh, say does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?
And where is that band who so hauntingly swore
That the havoc of war and the battle's confusion,
A home and a country should leave us no more!
Their blood has washed out their foul footsteps' pollution.
No refuge could save the hireling and slave
From the terror of flight, or the gloom of the grave:
And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!
Oh! thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand
Between their loved home and the war's desolation!
Blest with victory and peace, may the heav'n rescued land
Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation.
Then conquer we must, when our cause it is just,
And this be our motto: "In God is our trust."
And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!
First…
they screw up your mind with the television for which they get paid, then they get you locked up in prison or institutionalized for mental illness, for which they still get paid, then they want to “clean it up” for which they get paid again. WHAT A SCAM. WHERE IS THE WIN WIN? WHERE IS THE HUMANITY IN THIS?
42 U.S.C. § 10801 : US Code - Section 10801: Congressional findings and statement of purpose
…interesting, these same people are often subjected to abuses by these same institutionalizations and are often used as guinea pigs for drug experimentation.
42 U.S.C. § 10801 : US Code - Section 10801: Congressional findings and statement of purpose
“They”, people around me, have been threatening me with the cessation of my benefits after I post something of intelligence, claiming I am recovered. Then they prompt me to watch a movie to screw up my thinking.
Friday, April 8, 2011
I had a strange dream, vision, early yesterday morning…
I saw several people, they were in snow, they were trapped, I thought I heard Emmy Lou’s voice talking to me, she said she was trapped in the snow, I couldn’t tell what she was trying to tell me about her location…
I don’t watch the news much at all, my sister and her husband and my mother watch the news.
Laura Grimes was my best friend in high school…
Plummer looks like Dr. Richard Maurice Bucke in his older years…
Re: Mental Radio, Upton Sinclair…update 4
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Mental Radio, Upton Sinclair…
I have never met the architect who designed this structure for University Mall in Chapel Hill, NC. I couldn’t tell you who he or she is or where they are from. I vaguely recollect the sign displaying the information about the design inside the mall. I took the picture of the mall because I had pictures of it prior to the addition of these entrances and it reminded me of the carport to our house in Chesapeake, VA.
I have never been to California, at least physically. I have several relatives who have lived in San Diego, an acquaintance who lived there briefly and my mother’s second husband lived in California, where I cannot say. My acquaintance might have psychic connections with someone who lives on Wyoming, which runs into Arizona Street, as he was using the pseudonym Wyoming when I first met him. My mother’s second husband is not an architect. My father was stationed at Long Beach during WWII, he was a carpenter. James Gibbs was an architect.
How did I find this image? A shadow of doubt. I don’t know who I am trying to convince, others or myself.
University Mall, Chapel Hill, NC, you can see how the mind was attempting to make sense of the images it was receiving, if the designer had no knowledge of the building on Arizona Street in CA. If he or she did, then it was their brain trying to make sense of what it had seen since the end result was different than the original. All of the parts are there just organized differently.
And of course you can see how I would relate both to the carport over our driveway at Plummer (Christopher?) Plantation, Chesapeake, VA, which was a white metal construction, more open than the above design.
This is not an accurate drawing of our house, it has two windows on the right instead of one.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Radiation from Japan in NC?
…that’s interesting. With the wind currents such as they are I don’t know how much of it can get here. On the other hand, in California I would be concerned.
They can make it sound hokey if they want…
…but electromagnetic waves do affect brainwave activity and there are devices developed to interpret these transmissions from say MICROPHONES and cell phones.
I bet they’ve never heard of a Faraday cage either.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Judd’s story sounds more like someone else…
I am familiar with in the music industry.
Could this be a case of false memories or just trying to beat someone to a story?
I do know child molestation is not so rare. In the psyche hospital nearly every woman in there had a history of abuse, childhood molestation or sexual assault.
Sunday, April 3, 2011
To whom?
Consciousness is a disease
What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Vertical Labyrinth…
We trust the God Consciousness, yet we fall ill, get into accidents, get raped, murdered…Job, Job, Job, stressed to death…the road to consciousness is diseased, plagued with death and destruction…consciousness itself is desirable…all men are created equal, it’s the only way we can all be equal...
Old incoming…
“I’m going to save the government some money”.
Still not buying the Drinker-Lackawanna Valley explanation. Someone who knew about psychic entanglements and telepathy did this and I know it and I am knowing more and more…they created the script that caused my father to set up his own death the way it happened.
Incoming…
“Ron Silverman here”…
“that would be my piece of property”…
“Let me speak to her”
“Get your ass off that internet”…
Incoming…
“We haven’t been able to get a damned thing out of her”.
“Let me have a go at her”.
“Good luck”.
“She’s a good citizen for letting us mooch off her”.
“I suppose you’re devising a means to defend yourself with all those books”.
Mental Radio, Upton Sinclair…
Had the architect seen this already or was he connected to someone who had seen it?
Bond Avenue, Chesapeake, VA - 1963
Arizona Avenue, Westminster, CA
Estes Dr. Chapel Hill, NC
Incoming…
“I’m trying to see if I can burn this bitch out”…
Duh, Think mind not brain!
Entangled minds, psychic connections vs mental radio…You can’t be a writer and be that stupid.