Tuesday, May 31, 2011

I just had a ham sandwich and a Dr. Pepper…updated

…who has apricot colored hair?

Experiments in Mental Suggestion, L.L. Vasiliev…

Introduction, pg XXXV; chp 4 Mental Suggestion of Motor Acts, pgs 27, 33, 35.

Dream Telepathy, Ullman, Krippner and Vaughn

Mind to Mind, Warcollier

Entangled Minds, Dean Radin

Someone was hit in the head with a golf club…

…don’t know who it was…

Cane maybe, but I think it was a gold club…

This is the one who was messing with one or several of the victims…updated

Richard Brown,

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - Daily News - 19 November 1888

This is how this stuff got over here…If Carrie Brown had lived she would have been able to tell us who the killer was…

My cousin’s wife is named Connie Brown…

Remember the Civil War…

carrie Spencer gibbs

What you might also have is someone…updated

the substance of which he repeated on Saturday. His contention is that when a person has committed a grave crime, the knowledge thereof becomes the dominant idea in the mind, and that if the criminal be suddenly confronted with something closely connected with the act, his mind communicates to his body an unconscious leaning towards the object in question which may be used to substantiate his guilt.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - Evening News - 19 November 1888

…who is a victim of the culprit’s actions…

I mean that maybe Mr. Cumberland might have purchased a gold watch at a price cheaper than its worth and he thought it was a “steal”.

I drew a picture of someone…

around the time I drew the Ripper mark…he was black, wearing a red hat, like a porter or bell hop in a hotel.  It looks a bit like Stride to me, maybe Eddowes but more like Stride…this was before I had seen the bodies of the victims…

bell hop

Two had been in prison one in jail…

Woman in the Dunes (1964) - IMDb

Woman in the Dunes (1964) - IMDb

I drank some Tequila when in Asheboro, 1973 ~ Castenada…got very sick, the film reminded me of it today…

I thought this was a very well done film although I had to read subtitles.  The message is powerful.

My father drank moonshine ~ it seems possible that someone drank some bleach by mistake and lost their teeth or something…my father lost all of his teeth from pyorrhea but I think it was from the spirit.

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: I am having a problem sleeping…updated

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: I am having a problem sleeping…updated

I have mentioned this before.

I think it’s because of the psychic connections.  Some are trying to tap my mind at night for a story.  Having been born at 14 minutes past midnight my mind often starts to wake up and then I am unable to sleep but my body is tired and wants to sleep because I have been up and active all day.   During the day I feel like I am sleep walking.  I hear voices of writers trying to engage me in dialoguing and sometimes at night, I hear the voices of various people trying to get Victoria’s story which I have been mixed up in or the Jack the Ripper Story or some other story or some film that’s mixed up in my mind or that I have seen or is in someone else’s mind I am connected to or some music I have listened to or that someone else has heard to whom I am connected.  The music sometimes shows up at night when I am trying to sleep.   This makes for a serious sleep problem and I have become progressively more dysfunctional.    When the people I am connected to go to sleep, some of them dissociate their daytime activities.  This also awakens my mind with mental activity I am not familiar with.  

I have repeatedly requested benzodiazepines for sleep.  My sister gets them, my mother gets them, but for some reason they will not give them to me.   This has been the pattern throughout my life of not getting adequate sleep and the drugs I have taken over the years have not amounted to a handful as I have only taken one or two at the time, rarely consistently, except for the two overdoses.   Alcohol is the only thing I have used on a consistent basis.   As I said, during the day I feel as if I am sleep walking, I feel drowsy then I have to take something to wake me up, caffeine or tea.   I went through this same problem while in college.   I had to take black beauties or Dexedrine or some kind of upper to stay awake during the day.   It affected my performance, I started abusing alcohol more often, eventually dropped out of college and joined the Army where I got even less sleep than I had in college.   One would think it would be cumulative and that I should be sleeping a lot but I haven’t because of the conditions of my environment, noise, and  how my brain has been rewired by the television, films and music.  

I DO NOT CLEAN MINDS.  I am not interested in funding someone financial needs with my mind or brain.  I have requested the drugs from two different hospitals. 

The Power of Your Subconscious Mind, The Wonders of Sleep, page 192.   I read an older version of this book in the 80’s in which Murphy talked about a man who won the Guinness Book of Records for going without sleep, one I have no interest in, but someone certainly intended me trying out for it.   In this updated version to which I have linked, it is clear that one can be driven to do just about anything for sleep including spending outrageous sums of money for medications or even murder.

As I mentioned earlier, I have made no agreements to permit myself to be involved in any psychological studies on sleep.   I was involved in one sleep study in 1998 at the Durham, VA but that has long been over.  I did get a prescription recently for only 20 tabs and I had to take more than one and it was just beginning to work when they ran out. 

I know Susan had a problem with my being single and not having the responsibility of a child so she concluded that putting me in prison would take care of my trying to GET OUT of having any responsibility by having me listen to all their horror stories and screaming and yelling, which she manipulated me into on three occasions, thus cleaning up her and Helen’s Spear’s parenting habits.   They took little care to determine that I had already been subjected to my mother’s and aunt’s parenting history.  

NO MORE.  I NEED SOME SLEEP.

For the sake of people who think I am drunk.

klonopin bottle

I am having a problem sleeping…updated

I have mentioned this before.

I think it’s because of the psychic connections.  Some are trying to tap my mind at night for a story.  Having been born at 14 minutes past midnight my mind often starts to wake up and then I am unable to sleep but my body is tired and wants to sleep because I have been up and active all day.   During the day I feel like I am sleep walking.  I hear voices of writers trying to engage me in dialoguing and sometimes at night, I hear the voices of various people trying to get Victoria’s story which I have been mixed up in or the Jack the Ripper Story or some other story or some film that’s mixed up in my mind or that I have seen or is in someone else’s mind I am connected to or some music I have listened to or that someone else has heard to whom I am connected.  The music sometimes shows up at night when I am trying to sleep.   This makes for a serious sleep problem and I have become progressively more dysfunctional.    When the people I am connected to go to sleep, some of them dissociate their daytime activities.  This also awakens my mind with mental activity I am not familiar with.  

I have repeatedly requested benzodiazepines for sleep.  My sister gets them, my mother gets them, but for some reason they will not give them to me.   This has been the pattern throughout my life of not getting adequate sleep and the drugs I have taken over the years have not amounted to a handful as I have only taken one or two at the time, rarely consistently, except for the two overdoses.   Alcohol is the only thing I have used on a consistent basis.   As I said, during the day I feel as if I am sleep walking, I feel drowsy then I have to take something to wake me up, caffeine or tea.   I went through this same problem while in college.   I had to take black beauties or Dexedrine or some kind of upper to stay awake during the day.   It affected my performance, I started abusing alcohol more often, eventually dropped out of college and joined the Army where I got even less sleep than I had in college.   One would think it would be cumulative and that I should be sleeping a lot but I haven’t because of the conditions of my environment, noise, and  how my brain has been rewired by the television, films and music.  

I DO NOT CLEAN MINDS.  I am not interested in funding someone financial needs with my mind or brain.  I have requested the drugs from two different hospitals. 

The Power of Your Subconscious Mind, The Wonders of Sleep, page 192.   I read an older version of this book in the 80’s in which Murphy talked about a man who won the Guinness Book of Records for going without sleep, one I have no interest in, but someone certainly intended me trying out for it.   In this updated version to which I have linked, it is clear that one can be driven to do just about anything for sleep including spending outrageous sums of money for medications or even murder.

As I mentioned earlier, I have made no agreements to permit myself to be involved in any psychological studies on sleep.   I was involved in one sleep study in 1998 at the Durham, VA but that has long been over.  I did get a prescription recently for only 20 tabs and I had to take more than one and it was just beginning to work when they ran out. 

I know Susan had a problem with my being single and not having the responsibility of a child so she concluded that putting me in prison would take care of my trying to GET OUT of having any responsibility by having me listen to all their horror stories and screaming and yelling, which she manipulated me into on three occasions, thus cleaning up her and Helen’s Spear’s parenting habits.   They took little care to determine that I had already been subjected to my mother’s and aunt’s parenting history.  

NO MORE.  I NEED SOME SLEEP.

I don’t think this story is all together accurate…

…the story about the leg might have been about the pirate…

The Death of John Wilkes Booth, 1865

My father shooting the pig in 1967 was the other part of it…

…he took his rifle and walked to the barn.   I was behind him.   He fired one shot.

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: It has just come to me that Cher’s attitude about Republicans sounds…updated

I related the fire I set to Schoolcraft who was a Union Soldier who was part of the setting of the fire in Charleston, SC. 

As you can see I am not much of a history buff, I don’t read it. 

I did connect the Manson saga to this…and Manson was in prison in Petersburg, VA

I went to Boston ~ only went through it…

Virginia 12 days later, where he was tracked down and shot by Boston Corbett, a Union soldier who acted against orders. Eight

John Wilkes Booth - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Monday, May 30, 2011

It has just come to me that Cher’s attitude about Republicans sounds…updated

like it could be John Wilkes Booth…

I just read something about some things she said on the telephone to a radio show…In 1989 I jumped over the railing of the deck of the house where I was living just before being arrested,  just like Booth jumped over the presidential box…

I think he injured his right leg…

Incoming…

“…he was shot in the back point blank”.  

My father was shot in the chest.   I think the John Wilkes Booth story was mixed up in this tragedy.

Q Vickie’s wedding????????? updated

I have a relative named Vickie Gibbs…

image

Snake Triple Ring - Anthropologie.com

Dating to the Victorian era, when Prince Albert gave Queen Victoria an emerald-headed snake engagement ring, vaulting serpentine jewelry into popularity as a symbol of eternal love.

Snake Triple Ring - Anthropologie.com

I used to like emeralds and wore Emeraud Perfume while in high school…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?

…sand rows in this film…maybe film maker was seeing a flag…to me it was like someone who was in hot weather and delirious, I think that is why there were the distortions I was seeing, as I have seen things since that are more clear not distorted.

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?

Of course the zen garden was created before I learned of the film and have been using the garden for sometime…

zen garden

Laying out the cross…

The dark ring on the table is not a piece of jewelry, it is wax from my candle snuffer…it might represent the serpentine ring in the scheme of things…

I also thought of this as some kind of formal procession and the cross as well…which means the person might be positioned in that specific place…then it could be a nickel on the pavement or whatever…it could be the bearer of the ring acquisitioning the cross…

image

Incoming…

“Tell me your dreams”…

Three Cases of Murder…

In The Picture

BolinCreek

Looking for sunlight

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Women of the Dunes…

I think I accidentally ate some moth balls when I was a child…

I don’t mean for people to suffer for this, I mean to keep people from suffering…

Freudian slip, “transmitting”…

…did they hear Cia Lun’s process for making paper????

Plato and Aristotle were translated into Persian here, and chess was introduced from India. Persia was at the center of the global economy, exporting its own pearls and textiles, and transmitting Chinese paper and silk and Indian spices to Europe. The murals are all gone now, but some of the ruins of Ctesiphon remain:

The Language of Food: Ceviche and Fish & Chips

LSD experience…

…sand rows in this film…maybe film maker was seeing a flag…to me it was like someone who was in hot weather and delirious, I think that is why there were the distortions I was seeing, as I have seen things since that are more clear not distorted.

Paper making…

…I was given a brass tray that was about the size of Ancient papyrus…I think the pulp was rolled out into it…I used it as a Zen Garden…

Woman in the Dunes…

…I know I acted some of this out with school mates and friends in Nags Head, NC.

Cai Lun?   Looks like he’s on the chopping block in one scene…

When Time Ran Out – Paul Newman and Jacqueline Bisset…

So maybe it wasn’t Vesuvius but Fuji…

My dream of being chased by snakes…

chased by someone wearing that serpentine ring…

The hierarchy…

Trauma caused the parent to dissociate and it continued to split…and sort of fan out, well it seems that way but it doesn’t it just gets more complex…unraveling the serpentine ring…

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enmeshment cleo

Kay Gibbs is not an official member of Scientology…

I do understand it, like I said it is like therapy except there are a few things added to the process…

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Waltham Abbey (abbey) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia - updated

the creation of a new ceiling (showing signs of the zodiac as at Peterborough Cathedral),

Waltham Abbey (abbey) - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

This cross bears the sign of the fish…

I went to school with Harold…

crucifix

Drama: Gammer Gurton's Needle

Drama: Gammer Gurton's Needle

Gammer ~ an old woman…the Egyptian bust – Brimmage ~ Grammie

burrus tagore

Laying out the cross…update 3

…the jeweler apparently had the pieces in the tray…

image

My mother visited Zales frequently in VA that also sold jewelry, a department store turned Jewelry store…I have been building up to this over a period of years…

Greek parthenon…

chessboard 1

K-143

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Notice the left upper corner – the clay cross relief seems to resemble it…

Teahouse or coffeehouse maybe or the artist studio…

A piece of jewelry…

…Plummer plantation…The Vatican?

plummer plantation

incoming…

…I really do believe your little ass is mixed up in that thing”…

I AM NOT MIXED UP.   IT IS PART OF MY FAMILY’S HISTORY TOO, remember that.

The one below was sensing or witnessing the splitting of the personality…

Up where the heavens were dividing

Emmy Lou Harris lyrics - Michelangelo

Dual personalities splitting

Asexuality ~ the It Girl…

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Yellow gold 18th Century Georgian cross with rose cut diamonds

Emmylou Harris, Michelangelo Lyrics

Last night I dreamed about you
I dreamed that you were riding
On a blood-red painted pony
Up where the heavens were dividing
And the angels turned to ashes
You came tumbling with them to the earth
So Far below
Michelangelo

Emmylou Harris, Michelangelo Lyrics

HORSE

Carrie ~ metaphorical??????????

It was Kelly who gave a red scarf to someone…

…she or someone wore it in the workhouse…

Emmy Lou Harris Red Dirt Girl album comes to mind…some of the songs…

The song was Michelangelo…”did you wear the scarf I gave you”…

 Image4 kayfish

This is a red scarf…

kaymustang

Tobacco…

I have sniffed it and smoked it, tried chewing it…

some of my family have used snuff in the mouth…

I know quite a bit about shop keeping…

Kelly only appeared to be intoxicated…it was Martha Tabram or someone Martha was enmeshed with who was given to drink…

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?

…my Aunt, Uncle and Great Uncle having owned smalls stores of their own and having spent a good many years myself employed in discount chains such a Nichol’s Discount Center.

This would be how Kelly became enmeshed with the street women and how she found herself falling into depravity…

Incoming…update

…this girl’s drunk…

WRONG.  Kelly was mixed up with Abberline, supposedly, who smoked opium.  

Now it may be that this is a fallacy since discovering Cai Lun in the mix…the opium den…

Kelly only appeared to be intoxicated…it was Martha Tabram or someone Martha was enmeshed with who was given to drink…

Which is highly unlikely…update 3

It is far more powerful than a tale of a lone madman stalking women.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

…as we are all influenced by our parenting and our associations throughout life…

It seems Rumbelow prefers the scapegoat theory…his own profession created to protect the innocent from such enmeshments…

When I went to Salisbury…

I was suicidal…

I would argue these statements about Knight’s assumptions…updated

This is symptomatic of the entire problem with Knight's book and the Sickert theory. It is based entirely on assumptions. There is no direct, objective evidence to link Eddy with Annie, Gull with Sickert and Netley, or even Warren and Anderson with the Masons. Knight builds his argument through assuming that certain things are true. His proof is loose, lacking in hard facts, and uses them to make further assumptions leading to the murderous trio. It is a veritable house of cards which could be toppled by the removal of the slightest piece of evidence.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

…based on what I know about traumatic re-enactments, what I have experienced via what I consider synchronistic events as a result of the unresolved traumas and what I have learned about the aforementioned through reading and what I have come to understand about emotions and psychic matters.  It is true that Knight provides little concrete evidence to assert beyond doubt that the trio had anything to do with the murders and even then that proof may only be intangible. 

I did consider renting an artists studio…

A great deal of time is spent connecting Eddy with Cleveland Street. At the time, it was considered a great mecca for artists and Knight postulates that Sickert maintained a studio on that street. There is, outside of the story he told his son, nothing to firmly state that he did so.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

I did frequent tobacco shops but have never been employed in one…

tobacconist's shop to help Annie

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

Did someone read this book?

My mother has not read any of these Ripper publications.

I did like the aroma…

I went to Salisbury…

Salisbury then enlisted the aid of Sir William Gull who was the Queen's personal physician. According to Walter Sickert, Gull had Annie put away in the hospital and performed experiments on her which made her lose her memory, become epileptic, and slowly go insane. The story would have ended there if it had not been for Mary Kelly.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

I met Eddy…

Eddy and a poor Catholic girl named Alice Mary Crook.

Casebook: Jack the Ripper - The Royal Conspiracy

Not a killer…

Oh lord…

I just saw him cut her throat…

I was focused on the Priest I encountered here in Chapel Hill who looks like the Lyons.  Then

He is missing a front, a central incisor, tooth…

I lost my right one in an accident…

The Warped Ones (1960) - The Criterion Collection

The Warped Ones (1960) - The Criterion Collection

I recognized these films, some of them might have already been taken out.  I have not seen them.

21 days

Through a Glass Darkly

The Blog

Rules of The Game

A Married Couple

The Pornographers

Woman in the Dunes

The Night Porter

47 Ronin

M

Mon Oncle

Empire of Passion

The Kid

Knife in the water

Story of a Prostitute

Coup De Grace

Violence at Noon

The Bad Sleep Well

Three CAses of Murder

For Get Me Not

Jules and Jim

Major Barbara

Drunken Angel

Wild Strawberries

Earrings of Madame De

Cleo from 5 to 7

Limelight

Cruel Gun Story

High and Low

The Lost honor of Katharina Blum

Port of Call

Double Suicide

The Idiot

Winter Light

Death of a Cyclist

The Story of a Cheat

Intentions of Murder

Umberto D.

The Masseurs and a Woman

Street Without End

Rusty Knife

To Joy

Ace in the Hole

I also had a black onyx ring and my high school class ring also was black onyx…

Upon the death of Queen Victoria’s husband, Prince Albert (1861) jewelry styles turned much more somber to reflect her mourning and included jet, onyx and black glass. It also became popular to use the woven hair of a loved one as a keepsake in mourning jewelry.

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

I bet this is a piece of jewelry too!

kind of looks like a dance pattern also, like a waltx…

Copy of cleaning how it works

Crosses…

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

The cross below is not of iron but of red clay…I accidentally struck it and it broke in half…Forget-me-Nots[ ~ Celtic Knots or the resemblance thereof, in cross below] is a song I liked to listen to alot.

I purchased it while with my sister in 2004-2005 could even be 2006 maybe…I am sure I have the receipt for it as I have saved most all of my receipts since 1999…

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Friday, May 27, 2011

1975…

…at CT’s everything seemed so dark…roommate threw a bag of pills in the middle of the bed one night…I think it was really a bag of jelly beans…this was after my discharge from the Army…

I took a valium and drank some Vodka, I think someone slipped me a pill when I was in the Army, for sure now, because I wasn’t sleeping.  I don’t think I slept a single night during my basic training.  I wasn’t sleeping during AIT training.  I was paranoid about being possessed.

We made paper mache puppets in elementary school…

little round heads and sock bodies…

She likes the green not the red – Jade? UPDATED

Ancient Uyghur Civilization (2)-Cave art by ancient Uyghurs - Bing Videos

Music sounds like it’s from Wisdom of the Wood CD

Sand and Water and Spirit of The Gael – two of my favorites…

2,3,4,8,9 ones I listened to most often

Copy of woman on cross

woman on the cross2

Caves – up in the sky and dark inside…

Two mountains on the right should not be in picture, nor should cross…I was drawing what I was seeing in the mind.

Blueberry sized hail about 1:35 PM S. Estes Dr Chapel Hill, NC

This was taken after the heaviest amount that fell…

An eagle’s head…

…that’s what Johnny Watson’s head reminded me of an eagle…

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

Incoming…

“…she knows that choline chloride is better for her”…

I hear you people…I know how reverse psychology works…

Forget-me-not…

there is a song by that title that I loved and listened to frequently in the 80’s…

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

This looks like the clay cross I have without the crucifix…updated

…maybe some priest’s cross broke or something…if it wasn’t the one hanging in the church…

Antique jewelry Sweet gold Victorian gold antique cross made in France with crucifix

I hit it with my hand dancing about and it broke…

400 Blows film…?

or like I said someone hit a priest in the chest while he was wearing it…

Please remember I live in a different time zone…

and I need to get to sleep earlier.

I can feel you people shifting me around here.

The tiger’s eye ring was designed very similar to this one…

Silver (Alloy) Ring; Sapphire Blue Glass Gemstone.

It looks like maybe the designer had a combination of both in his mind.  It was sterling silver and I got in Greenville while at ECU so chances are some jewelry student created it.

Copy of KayFreshman

I know where this came from…

I went to Jamestown in Virginia and witnessed glassblowers making vases, etc….

What's In Your Brain? What's In Your Mind?: Orrefors History ~ Sephora????????

This is what threw me off on the Sibyls…

…thinking Blake was the Erythraean Sibyl…  maybe

NGA - Gerrit Dou, The Hermit

Cai Lun ~ Story of O…? UPDATED

I just spent two hours talking with a friend who works at GNC about hemp.  I couldn’t connect with it until I got home and started a search on hemp and found this. 

I had the image of the opium house in my mind…

A young Cai Lun, maybe…

Copy of KayFreshman sally stone 2

The ring on my left finger is a tiger’s eye…